Whispers in the dark

[wordsinether]

"Ah, but you are alone. Who knows what you have spoken to the darkness, alone, in the bitter watches of the night, when all your life seems to shrink, the walls of your bower closing in about you, a hutch to trammel some wild thing in? So fair, yet so cold like a morning of pale Spring still clinging to Winter

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[themaduniverse]

Ah, but you are not alone.

You have more people that love and care about you than you will admit to yourself. Being alone is a decision just as being in love is. Remember to keep things in perspective, just by reading this you are temporarily forgetting that none of this is actually real. The only thing in each persons universe that actually Is real are your feelings, desires, where you came from, and where you're going. All else is subjective reality. Its is only real for you if you choose it to be. We choose the paths wee need to learn from, to grow from. Granted they are chosen subconsiously most times, but chosen none the less.

Here's something Richard Bach wrote: You are led through this lifetime by the inner learning creature, the playful spiritual being which is your true self. Don't turn away from possible futures before you are certian you have nothing to learn from them. You are always free to change your mind and choose a different future, or for that matter, a different past. There is no such thing as a tribulation without a gift for you in its hands. We seek trials because we need their gifts.

I have sen the strength that resides in you. It may be dormant at the moment, but it won't take much to rouse it. Seize fate by the throat, and choose the future you would have. I believe in you.

[wordsinether]

I don't equate fearing for the future, and being concerned about making wise choices with weakness. Depression, discouragement, and hopelessness are weaknesses, I agree. However the point of this post was my pondering the root of those weaknesses. I put a great deal of stock in traveling the best paths in life. I know there are many, but I think there are some that lead us to our destinies by the most direct route, where learning and enlightenment is gained in a more direct manner, without the pain that can cripple us and rob us of hope and vision. I try to make all of the choices in my life with a great deal of care, because while I meant end up at the same place, I'd much rather take the best path for me, the one that will get me to the end point with the most enlightenment, and the least hurts and wounds.

As for the future, I think you are right in that no course once set is every permanent. The seer that came to me shortly after my last relationship ended told me that there would be signs to point me in the right direction. There do seem to be a surprising amount of signs pointing me to LA. So I think perhaps being afraid of the move is foolish. The thing about destiny is - when you are on the right path. The best one. Things tend to fall into place. I've seen this in my life numerous times. So I can only hope that job, apartment, and everything else will just click smoothly into place when I head out there. Heck, maybe I'll even be able to re-establish some contact with some old friends if they get their arses out there too. ;-)

[themaduniverse]

I'm not sure, how I mis worded my comment, but I apologize if I offended. I don't consider "fearing for the future, and being concerned about making wise choices" with weakness either. I was just trying to say that you were on the right track, and tell you that you have reserves of strength that you may not realize. I was trying to compliment and encourage you. I was saying that you are more brave than you may think. =)

[wordsinether]

No offence was taken. :) I do feel weak sometimes. Worse, I blame my own weakness for driving people I care about away, for making me undesireable. So, dear Mad, no worries. I took your words as encouraging and was heartened to know someone believed in me so much.