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I was waiting for this to happen, it always seems to happen during transitional stages in my life when I am feeling insecure about the future.
I woke up today and looked in the mirror. "I think I have gained a bit of weight" I think to myself and carry on during the day thinking nothing of it. Then it comes back to me again after lunch. "I sure feel bloated, maybe I should throw up I would feel better". I decide not to and try to ignore the nagging voice in my head growing stronger with each passing minute.
I should probably not be eating as many carbs as I am. I think I will cut back the carbs.
I get told I am a beautiful girl alot. Ecspecially lately. But I am pretty sure I am getting fat.
Fuck I hat eating disorders its so hard to tell if I am or not. Not that I have an eating disorder still, but the thoughts are still there even in a place as great as Nelson.
I woke up today and looked in the mirror. "I think I have gained a bit of weight" I think to myself and carry on during the day thinking nothing of it. Then it comes back to me again after lunch. "I sure feel bloated, maybe I should throw up I would feel better". I decide not to and try to ignore the nagging voice in my head growing stronger with each passing minute.
I should probably not be eating as many carbs as I am. I think I will cut back the carbs.
I get told I am a beautiful girl alot. Ecspecially lately. But I am pretty sure I am getting fat.
Fuck I hat eating disorders its so hard to tell if I am or not. Not that I have an eating disorder still, but the thoughts are still there even in a place as great as Nelson.