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Guess, I'll write about my Monday now, as I met a woman for dinner at Applebee's from online. And even though I knew we were meeting just as friends I had built to strong of false hopes that it would turn into something more and reality caused me to fall. As stupid as it sounds, I wanted her to fall in love with me, but I know it doesn't happen that way. Especially with me, no matter how much I wish for it.
I arrived early and went inside to wait, and of course I have to screw up somehow and my cell phone ended up on 'Driving Mode' which kept it from ringing. She called to say she had arrived and I missed it, but we did meet up without a problem.
She is as beautiful as I expected.
Think our dinner conversation went well, flowed smoothly and shared some laughs. We talked about church a lot since we are both involved in ours and she asked me to pray when our food came.
Of course after further review there are things I wish I would have said and other things wish I wouldn't have, but guess thats normal. And I tried not to be to dramtic because of my tendency to give the wrong impression and scare people when I try and be sweet.
And though I didn't want to go overboard, I wanted to get her a little something because thats just the way I am. But wanted to be careful not to get something that would come off as to strong. And I noticed on her profile that she wrote she loves pickles so I got an idea. Yes, I know its an unusual gift but I depended on her sense of humor to take it the right way. She loved it, it was a hit, and she gave me a hug.
Bottom line, as a meeting of friends which I should have kept it as it was a success but as my dream of being something more it was a failure.
I have the problem of wanting to end up on the top of the ladder without having to climb it. And as someone told me, that is so true, I also need to make sure I'm climbing the right ladder. Don't think I always do that, which may be part of the reason I fall so much.
I arrived early and went inside to wait, and of course I have to screw up somehow and my cell phone ended up on 'Driving Mode' which kept it from ringing. She called to say she had arrived and I missed it, but we did meet up without a problem.
She is as beautiful as I expected.
Think our dinner conversation went well, flowed smoothly and shared some laughs. We talked about church a lot since we are both involved in ours and she asked me to pray when our food came.
Of course after further review there are things I wish I would have said and other things wish I wouldn't have, but guess thats normal. And I tried not to be to dramtic because of my tendency to give the wrong impression and scare people when I try and be sweet.
And though I didn't want to go overboard, I wanted to get her a little something because thats just the way I am. But wanted to be careful not to get something that would come off as to strong. And I noticed on her profile that she wrote she loves pickles so I got an idea. Yes, I know its an unusual gift but I depended on her sense of humor to take it the right way. She loved it, it was a hit, and she gave me a hug.
Bottom line, as a meeting of friends which I should have kept it as it was a success but as my dream of being something more it was a failure.
I have the problem of wanting to end up on the top of the ladder without having to climb it. And as someone told me, that is so true, I also need to make sure I'm climbing the right ladder. Don't think I always do that, which may be part of the reason I fall so much.