take that/take it back/take me dancing?
So i've been all... something something of late.
And i read over my last entry, and i feel somewhat ashamed of myself! Yes! Ashamed! Torn too, very torn.
See, I have a really great life. I love my family and have the best friends ever. My degree at uni is awesome, i love every second of learning (not every second, maybe every second second.) I love that my classes are small and that i know kids in them and that i know lecturers! i love it a whole lot. I love (mostly, as much as anyone can) my job! the work is easy and they pay me and everyone else who works there is awesome.
Yet! sometimes i get all grumpy, all down, all "something something" (i've been saying it alot, a whole lot) and it gets the better of me easily. My life isn't perfect, no it's not, and i've had my share of trials and tribulations, but mostly i guess the truth is that i brought them on myself (or when met with an initial problem failed to deal with it and therefore the snowball that crushed me is my fault), and so i shouldn't really complain about it.
I am the worlds hugest fan of venting, and often if i don't write something out like that then i just get worse. Maybe it takes me a day or three of listening to one cat power song on repeat to wake myself up. I'm not sure. I also guess part of me loves it, loves feeling bad. and that is stupid and honest and everything good and bad all rolled up into one statement. and i'm glad i made it. it's made me happy to see it on this "sheet of paper" whatever.
So maybe i'll be less whiney in the future? who knows. I made a pact with myself that i would be honest in this journal from now on. so what you'll be gettin is as close to me as i can articulate.
I'm loving these words:
articulate
something something
perks
awkward
mediated
cat
it's nice to have you with me. You all make my life less like that last post and more like dancing. I honestly mean that.
Special love for Miss Alison who yelled at me and made me stop listening to Cat Power. I've been listening to Pavement! I'm a new person! Alison is the best friend i have ever ever had.
And i read over my last entry, and i feel somewhat ashamed of myself! Yes! Ashamed! Torn too, very torn.
See, I have a really great life. I love my family and have the best friends ever. My degree at uni is awesome, i love every second of learning (not every second, maybe every second second.) I love that my classes are small and that i know kids in them and that i know lecturers! i love it a whole lot. I love (mostly, as much as anyone can) my job! the work is easy and they pay me and everyone else who works there is awesome.
Yet! sometimes i get all grumpy, all down, all "something something" (i've been saying it alot, a whole lot) and it gets the better of me easily. My life isn't perfect, no it's not, and i've had my share of trials and tribulations, but mostly i guess the truth is that i brought them on myself (or when met with an initial problem failed to deal with it and therefore the snowball that crushed me is my fault), and so i shouldn't really complain about it.
I am the worlds hugest fan of venting, and often if i don't write something out like that then i just get worse. Maybe it takes me a day or three of listening to one cat power song on repeat to wake myself up. I'm not sure. I also guess part of me loves it, loves feeling bad. and that is stupid and honest and everything good and bad all rolled up into one statement. and i'm glad i made it. it's made me happy to see it on this "sheet of paper" whatever.
So maybe i'll be less whiney in the future? who knows. I made a pact with myself that i would be honest in this journal from now on. so what you'll be gettin is as close to me as i can articulate.
I'm loving these words:
articulate
something something
perks
awkward
mediated
cat
it's nice to have you with me. You all make my life less like that last post and more like dancing. I honestly mean that.
Special love for Miss Alison who yelled at me and made me stop listening to Cat Power. I've been listening to Pavement! I'm a new person! Alison is the best friend i have ever ever had.