I'll move to Paris...shoot some heroin...fuck with the stars.....
"Are you in......living in sin is the new thing. Are you in? One....Two.....Three. I don't mean you and me, got 180 degrees and I'm caught inbetween. Countin' One, Two Three....Peter, Paul and Mary getting down on repeat.....
What we do is innocent, just for fun and nothing meant. If you don't like the company, let's just do it you and me...you and me....or three.....or four......on the floor" - Britney Spears 3
Piece Of Me - Is how I feel about the hostel. I'm sure they are trying to make me flip.
This is somewhat flippin' PERFECT....For my situation.....PERFECT.
"I've been a bad, bad girl - I've been careless with a delicate man, and it's a sad, sad world.....where a girl will break a man, just because she can.....Don't you tell me to deny it....I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins...I've come to you 'cause I need guidance to be true....And I just don't know where I can begin....What I need is a good defense 'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal. And I need to be redeemed..To the one I've sinned against..Because he's all I ever knew of love.
Heaven help me for the way I am....Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done....I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand...But I keep living this day like the next will never come...
Oh help me but don't tell me to deny it.....I've got to cleanse myself of all these lies 'till I'm good enough for him.....I've got a lot to lose and I'm bettin' high so I'm begging you.....Before it ends just tell me where to begin.....What I need is a good defense 'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal.........." - Fiona Apple Criminal
Regina Spektor - Eet - Forgot how flippin' GOOD this is. Aaaaargh. I'm actually a little bit in love with this woman.
"It's like forgetting the words to your favourite song, you can't believe it....you were always singing along....." Prison.Prison.Prison. (did that to me)
Mumford and Sons - Little Lion Man
"Rate yourself and break yourself, take all the courage you can get. Wasted on fixing all the problems made in your head.....But it was not your fault but mine....and it was your heart on the line. I really fucked it up this time....didn't I my dear.....didn't I my dear?"
And this was mentioned yesterday, but it's getting mentioned again, because I feel....that it represents exactly what I've been going through over the past few years. Hate to say this but yeah.....my journey...through prison and out again...and battling with alcohol....and everything..but postive....because I can "Shake it Off"....I hope. I think this whole experience has affected me more then I care to let on. I really think it has.
Florence and The Machine - Shake It Out
Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn
And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around
And our love is pastured such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it's always darkest before the dawn
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a fine romance but its left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn
Oh woah, oh woah...
And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me............................
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
(That's really made me feel very emotional) And Christ.....I haven't even listened to any Aimee Mann since I came out. That's going to be a crying day. To be fair, I think if anyone spent 6 months locked up at HMP, they would have to have a heart of stone not to be affected by things that happen in prison.
What we do is innocent, just for fun and nothing meant. If you don't like the company, let's just do it you and me...you and me....or three.....or four......on the floor" - Britney Spears 3
Piece Of Me - Is how I feel about the hostel. I'm sure they are trying to make me flip.
This is somewhat flippin' PERFECT....For my situation.....PERFECT.
"I've been a bad, bad girl - I've been careless with a delicate man, and it's a sad, sad world.....where a girl will break a man, just because she can.....Don't you tell me to deny it....I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins...I've come to you 'cause I need guidance to be true....And I just don't know where I can begin....What I need is a good defense 'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal. And I need to be redeemed..To the one I've sinned against..Because he's all I ever knew of love.
Heaven help me for the way I am....Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done....I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand...But I keep living this day like the next will never come...
Oh help me but don't tell me to deny it.....I've got to cleanse myself of all these lies 'till I'm good enough for him.....I've got a lot to lose and I'm bettin' high so I'm begging you.....Before it ends just tell me where to begin.....What I need is a good defense 'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal.........." - Fiona Apple Criminal
Regina Spektor - Eet - Forgot how flippin' GOOD this is. Aaaaargh. I'm actually a little bit in love with this woman.
"It's like forgetting the words to your favourite song, you can't believe it....you were always singing along....." Prison.Prison.Prison. (did that to me)
Mumford and Sons - Little Lion Man
"Rate yourself and break yourself, take all the courage you can get. Wasted on fixing all the problems made in your head.....But it was not your fault but mine....and it was your heart on the line. I really fucked it up this time....didn't I my dear.....didn't I my dear?"
And this was mentioned yesterday, but it's getting mentioned again, because I feel....that it represents exactly what I've been going through over the past few years. Hate to say this but yeah.....my journey...through prison and out again...and battling with alcohol....and everything..but postive....because I can "Shake it Off"....I hope. I think this whole experience has affected me more then I care to let on. I really think it has.
Florence and The Machine - Shake It Out
Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn
And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around
And our love is pastured such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it's always darkest before the dawn
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a fine romance but its left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn
Oh woah, oh woah...
And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me............................
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah
(That's really made me feel very emotional) And Christ.....I haven't even listened to any Aimee Mann since I came out. That's going to be a crying day. To be fair, I think if anyone spent 6 months locked up at HMP, they would have to have a heart of stone not to be affected by things that happen in prison.