Can't we just have smooth sailing for more than a few days?!`
So just when you think everything is right in the world, a little piece has to break off and fall.....
Dez lost one of his jobs today. I'm not even gonna get into it cause it pisses me off so much, but it was a BS reason and it was NOT his fault!
Buuut, he's a trooper. He went from his job to my house to get the classified section and started looking for a new job. That's my honey, always willing to give it his all to do what needs to be done. One of the things I love about him! =)
On the positive side, I got a loan for $3,000 and a grant for $6,000 so some of that money can go directly into our savings account for the wedding. A lot of it will be going to Mom and Dad, of course, for helping me out, but there will be plenty left over for everything I need and to save a good bit. So things could be worse. The only problem is that it won't be coming for 3 weeks or so, so in the meantime there's really no money and I need it sooner than that. So it's back to waiting.
Well right now Dez is on his way up to Dumfries to visit his baby girl (and Carrie....grr) As far as I know she doesn't know about our engagement yet, or I doubt she'd be so nice as to let him have any time with his daughter, even if Carrie is there. god I miss that little girl. I only saw her a few times, and I haven't seen her since November, but I really want to see her little face and see the little girl she's become. I keep hoping that one day Carrie will come around and realize she has to accept that I'm going to be in Dez's life forever and she and I will have to learn to get along. I have no problem trying to get along with her. She's not a very nice person, but for Dez's sake I can try not to dislike her too much.
So Chaylea has developed a habit of 1.) taking an hour of coming out of her room saying she's scared/needs a drink/wants more kisses before she'll go to sleep and 2.) waking in the middle of the night wanting to come sleep with me. I don't know what in the world to do. It's obvious she's frightened by something (pretty typical of her age to start developing fears) but I don't really know how to handle it. All I know is after about the 5th time she comes out of her room I start to get pretty frustrated. Anyone have any ideas??
I still want to know who that person was who responded to my last post and who knows Dez and not me. Show yourself, person. Curiosity has got the best of me. Who would be reading my LJ if they didn't know me, even if they knew my fiancee? And I certainly want to know who said such nice things about us. Do I get a hint at least??
Well, I'll see you all tonight. Dez has to work so he won't be coming out, but I'll be there on his behalf. =) Love and peace to all of you.
Dez lost one of his jobs today. I'm not even gonna get into it cause it pisses me off so much, but it was a BS reason and it was NOT his fault!
Buuut, he's a trooper. He went from his job to my house to get the classified section and started looking for a new job. That's my honey, always willing to give it his all to do what needs to be done. One of the things I love about him! =)
On the positive side, I got a loan for $3,000 and a grant for $6,000 so some of that money can go directly into our savings account for the wedding. A lot of it will be going to Mom and Dad, of course, for helping me out, but there will be plenty left over for everything I need and to save a good bit. So things could be worse. The only problem is that it won't be coming for 3 weeks or so, so in the meantime there's really no money and I need it sooner than that. So it's back to waiting.
Well right now Dez is on his way up to Dumfries to visit his baby girl (and Carrie....grr) As far as I know she doesn't know about our engagement yet, or I doubt she'd be so nice as to let him have any time with his daughter, even if Carrie is there. god I miss that little girl. I only saw her a few times, and I haven't seen her since November, but I really want to see her little face and see the little girl she's become. I keep hoping that one day Carrie will come around and realize she has to accept that I'm going to be in Dez's life forever and she and I will have to learn to get along. I have no problem trying to get along with her. She's not a very nice person, but for Dez's sake I can try not to dislike her too much.
So Chaylea has developed a habit of 1.) taking an hour of coming out of her room saying she's scared/needs a drink/wants more kisses before she'll go to sleep and 2.) waking in the middle of the night wanting to come sleep with me. I don't know what in the world to do. It's obvious she's frightened by something (pretty typical of her age to start developing fears) but I don't really know how to handle it. All I know is after about the 5th time she comes out of her room I start to get pretty frustrated. Anyone have any ideas??
I still want to know who that person was who responded to my last post and who knows Dez and not me. Show yourself, person. Curiosity has got the best of me. Who would be reading my LJ if they didn't know me, even if they knew my fiancee? And I certainly want to know who said such nice things about us. Do I get a hint at least??
Well, I'll see you all tonight. Dez has to work so he won't be coming out, but I'll be there on his behalf. =) Love and peace to all of you.