With the birds I'll share this lonely view.
A good friend of mine died this morning from some complications he was having as a result of throat cancer. I feel...strangely aloof to it? I always feel this way when someone I know has died. I guess it's kind of sad I can say that when I'm only 19, but is it really so strange that I would know more than a few people who are no longer around?
I think I should feel horrible and grief ridden. I mean this guy wasn't some acquaintance! I considered the man my friggen mentor here. And nothing, one morning he's gone. No good byes nothing. What have I become? I don't understand why I don't want to cry why I don't want to just go home right now. It makes me want to throw up that I don't feel at least SOMETHING other than passive awareness that I'll never see him again. Is that enough?
blah.
I'll really miss him. Bill was a really unique guy and probably the only one I know here that understood most of my humor. He was hilariously subtle and witty.
I can't imagine what his family must feel like. He has a daughter who's in her first year of high school, dear lord that has to be horrific.
sigh
It's only 9am, why am I such an ass in times like these?
I think I should feel horrible and grief ridden. I mean this guy wasn't some acquaintance! I considered the man my friggen mentor here. And nothing, one morning he's gone. No good byes nothing. What have I become? I don't understand why I don't want to cry why I don't want to just go home right now. It makes me want to throw up that I don't feel at least SOMETHING other than passive awareness that I'll never see him again. Is that enough?
blah.
I'll really miss him. Bill was a really unique guy and probably the only one I know here that understood most of my humor. He was hilariously subtle and witty.
I can't imagine what his family must feel like. He has a daughter who's in her first year of high school, dear lord that has to be horrific.
sigh
It's only 9am, why am I such an ass in times like these?