knowing you fucked up something good
Whether or not in the end you find out that it in fact was your fault she left [She, the love of your life. She, the one you have been looking for this whole time. She, who is the most beautiful woman you have ever met. She, who is unbelievably funny. She, who is unbelievably loving. She, who showed you her affection. She, who cared for you while you were sick. She, who wanted the best for you. She, who loved you.] and the truth on what happened fully/actually comes out... knowing you could have done more/better will be what destroys you.
Knowing she is gone and that no matter how much you beg and plead [despite what the men's blogs say about not begging] nothing you say, do, or promise will ever fix that amount of time you ruined.
Sure there are guaranteed fights. But, Anna, you didn't have to always respond so defensively. She, the smart one you loved so much... She was put down by your defensiveness. She needed your support... then.
You should have helped out more... considering that she, who was nurturing was always so willing to help you.
You pushed her away Anna, you are going to have to live with that. Forgive my harsh tone... but remember all the times prior you have fucked up or thought a girl was not perfect for XYZ? This one was. She, the love of your life, was the perfect one and despite this you tried to chip away at her. This work of art, you began to alter.
And you didn't take action when she needed you to. When the two of you needed you to take action, you got scared. You got scared and acted as a coward, not seeing the damage you were causing.
And now what. Now she has likely fallen out of love with you. Read that again, because it's what you caused through inaction.
So... now you deal with it. Do your penance. Serve your time. If you are lucky... if God has a shred of sympathy for you - she may give you another chance. But listen... if you do, make sure that every night you remember writing this. You remember who is there with you... WITH not for... WITH you.
But bc it is more likely she will not return, you reflect, and you learn, and you pray every night that 'God' blesses you with a true friend because She, was perfect. She, was the only one of her kind. She, was your girlfriend. She is gone now. She is Danni.
Knowing she is gone and that no matter how much you beg and plead [despite what the men's blogs say about not begging] nothing you say, do, or promise will ever fix that amount of time you ruined.
Sure there are guaranteed fights. But, Anna, you didn't have to always respond so defensively. She, the smart one you loved so much... She was put down by your defensiveness. She needed your support... then.
You should have helped out more... considering that she, who was nurturing was always so willing to help you.
You pushed her away Anna, you are going to have to live with that. Forgive my harsh tone... but remember all the times prior you have fucked up or thought a girl was not perfect for XYZ? This one was. She, the love of your life, was the perfect one and despite this you tried to chip away at her. This work of art, you began to alter.
And you didn't take action when she needed you to. When the two of you needed you to take action, you got scared. You got scared and acted as a coward, not seeing the damage you were causing.
And now what. Now she has likely fallen out of love with you. Read that again, because it's what you caused through inaction.
So... now you deal with it. Do your penance. Serve your time. If you are lucky... if God has a shred of sympathy for you - she may give you another chance. But listen... if you do, make sure that every night you remember writing this. You remember who is there with you... WITH not for... WITH you.
But bc it is more likely she will not return, you reflect, and you learn, and you pray every night that 'God' blesses you with a true friend because She, was perfect. She, was the only one of her kind. She, was your girlfriend. She is gone now. She is Danni.