Here I go again!
I've been antsy all day. And it's making me feel restless and indecisive as to what I want to do. I'm stuck here babysitting my godson so I can't go and do what I absolutely want to do... Which is walk around the woods. Thought about picking up Skyrim, or Sims3 again, but then again I was thinking of setting up my PS3 and playing Dragon Age... Or watch some stuff on Netflix. I honestly don't know.
I'm not feeling sad or depressed or anything, just really itching to get out into some woods and just wander and explore. The last time I went it was my mate and I, and even though it was rainy we went exploring the expansive Pachaug State Park. We came up on what's called "Mount Misery" and it had a breath-taking view. Then we hopped into the Baja and drove further into the park, found a nice trail and hiked up it. There were ATV tracks and potholes where rainwater gathered and all these frogs were all over the place. I caught two. It was quite fun, and I enjoyed knowing I still have frog-catching skills!
But it's great having someone who legit enjoys doing the same things as you, instead of complaining or making you feel like shit for suggesting something you think would be fun/enjoyable [such as taking a walk in the woods]. Not to mention he's much easier and awesome to wake up than Andrea was. I dreaded having to wake her up [which was every single day], because it was like I was trying to break her bones or poking her with hot irons. It would literally take me 2-5 hrs, sometimes even longer, to get her to get out of fucking bed. And all the while she'd be screeching at me and getting angry at me like it was somehow my fault. If I just let her sleep she'd easily sleep a good 18+ hrs.
I know I've been saying this like a broken record, but I'm so fucking happy I got out of that shit relationship. I was so depressed and miserable that what little happiness I had felt like heaven... Which, honestly, is quite pathetic. Every day feels like heaven compared to what I felt like before. And the difference is greater than night and day, if that's even possible. It's like being taken from a void of complete and utter darkness where no light could come through, and being placed on solid ground in middle of the most amazing forest you can imagine. The term complete 180 is an understatement.
Even with money issues and living paycheck to paycheck, and dealing with the problems life has been kinda tossing my way, I smile so much easier, and I feel so much better about myself. Granted I still greatly dislike my species situation, but that can't be helped and I've come to terms with that. I am happy, and I get shivers everytime I realize just how happy I am.
I'm not feeling sad or depressed or anything, just really itching to get out into some woods and just wander and explore. The last time I went it was my mate and I, and even though it was rainy we went exploring the expansive Pachaug State Park. We came up on what's called "Mount Misery" and it had a breath-taking view. Then we hopped into the Baja and drove further into the park, found a nice trail and hiked up it. There were ATV tracks and potholes where rainwater gathered and all these frogs were all over the place. I caught two. It was quite fun, and I enjoyed knowing I still have frog-catching skills!
But it's great having someone who legit enjoys doing the same things as you, instead of complaining or making you feel like shit for suggesting something you think would be fun/enjoyable [such as taking a walk in the woods]. Not to mention he's much easier and awesome to wake up than Andrea was. I dreaded having to wake her up [which was every single day], because it was like I was trying to break her bones or poking her with hot irons. It would literally take me 2-5 hrs, sometimes even longer, to get her to get out of fucking bed. And all the while she'd be screeching at me and getting angry at me like it was somehow my fault. If I just let her sleep she'd easily sleep a good 18+ hrs.
I know I've been saying this like a broken record, but I'm so fucking happy I got out of that shit relationship. I was so depressed and miserable that what little happiness I had felt like heaven... Which, honestly, is quite pathetic. Every day feels like heaven compared to what I felt like before. And the difference is greater than night and day, if that's even possible. It's like being taken from a void of complete and utter darkness where no light could come through, and being placed on solid ground in middle of the most amazing forest you can imagine. The term complete 180 is an understatement.
Even with money issues and living paycheck to paycheck, and dealing with the problems life has been kinda tossing my way, I smile so much easier, and I feel so much better about myself. Granted I still greatly dislike my species situation, but that can't be helped and I've come to terms with that. I am happy, and I get shivers everytime I realize just how happy I am.