Getting back in the loop
It's been a while.
I've been hiding in my hole, entrance pulled in behind me. I went into a work and life sabbatical from contemporary existence. Time spent like this is a time of introspection, growth, and healing. I applied myself to my work, and to figuring out my life and how in the hell I'm supposed to live it in this modern world.
I've been at this a few years now I guess. I've had a whole life at another place since last I've written anything significant down. This last round has been for the most part all in my head, talking to myself, living with Chris. I've met a few people along the way, some have stuck - others not so much.
I've had some false starts at rejoining the world at large, and along the way I hope I've learned a thing or two. Some of those lessons were hard, and I'm not really sure I want to repeat them. I'm sure I'm far from done, because I'm pretty sure the point is keep trying, and keep learning.
I'm still working on who I want to be, but I think I've a much better idea of who I am now.
Over the last several months - maybe the better part of the last year; my life has been on a new path. It's been a crazy chain of events, currently landing me living downtown. For the first time ever I'm not in the burbs, slums, or field lands. I've been learning to have friends again, more than just the few people I considered family.
Recently I've had some encounters in my life I've found rather inspiring. I'm not sure why exactly, but a short conversation I had with a new acquaintance, (a friend of an amazing person I'm also just starting to get to know), really struck home for me. Since then, I've been feeling that internal push, to get out, do, create, write, and focus on finding whats really important in the world.
Maybe it's just spring. Maybe it's just the fact that Mercury just changed direct, back from retrograde. Maybe it's something completely different. But I've come up with some goals, things I want to change about me and my life.
1). I want to write more, I'll start by resurrecting my old place of rambling. No idea if anyone will care to read it, but I hope so. I would like to use this to communicate, and while just putting it out their is a huge step, I want to hear and the be heard.
2). I'm 28, going to be 29 in November. I don't know how to ride a bicycle. Enough is enough, before fall I want to learn.
3). I've not felt a strong sense of community with friends and kindred spirits since I left Kansas City. I've come to miss it, I want to work on being a good person that can bring something worthwhile to such a community.
4). I want to be less shy, less afraid of taking the right chances, and a bit wiser in not taking the wrong chances.
5). I want to act with the best of intentions and integrity. I want to understand the important people in my life, and do my best to do right by them.
I've been hiding in my hole, entrance pulled in behind me. I went into a work and life sabbatical from contemporary existence. Time spent like this is a time of introspection, growth, and healing. I applied myself to my work, and to figuring out my life and how in the hell I'm supposed to live it in this modern world.
I've been at this a few years now I guess. I've had a whole life at another place since last I've written anything significant down. This last round has been for the most part all in my head, talking to myself, living with Chris. I've met a few people along the way, some have stuck - others not so much.
I've had some false starts at rejoining the world at large, and along the way I hope I've learned a thing or two. Some of those lessons were hard, and I'm not really sure I want to repeat them. I'm sure I'm far from done, because I'm pretty sure the point is keep trying, and keep learning.
I'm still working on who I want to be, but I think I've a much better idea of who I am now.
Over the last several months - maybe the better part of the last year; my life has been on a new path. It's been a crazy chain of events, currently landing me living downtown. For the first time ever I'm not in the burbs, slums, or field lands. I've been learning to have friends again, more than just the few people I considered family.
Recently I've had some encounters in my life I've found rather inspiring. I'm not sure why exactly, but a short conversation I had with a new acquaintance, (a friend of an amazing person I'm also just starting to get to know), really struck home for me. Since then, I've been feeling that internal push, to get out, do, create, write, and focus on finding whats really important in the world.
Maybe it's just spring. Maybe it's just the fact that Mercury just changed direct, back from retrograde. Maybe it's something completely different. But I've come up with some goals, things I want to change about me and my life.
1). I want to write more, I'll start by resurrecting my old place of rambling. No idea if anyone will care to read it, but I hope so. I would like to use this to communicate, and while just putting it out their is a huge step, I want to hear and the be heard.
2). I'm 28, going to be 29 in November. I don't know how to ride a bicycle. Enough is enough, before fall I want to learn.
3). I've not felt a strong sense of community with friends and kindred spirits since I left Kansas City. I've come to miss it, I want to work on being a good person that can bring something worthwhile to such a community.
4). I want to be less shy, less afraid of taking the right chances, and a bit wiser in not taking the wrong chances.
5). I want to act with the best of intentions and integrity. I want to understand the important people in my life, and do my best to do right by them.