more sad...sorry...please don;t feel you need to read but I am not putting it behind a cut...
Hey bloggers, blogettes and bloginites. Just me again, I am bordering between the same and better, nothing like a musical to raise your spirits and nothing like coming home to remind you of everything still being a mess both literally and figuratively. I am still hacking away and my throat is hurting because of said hacking. It was fun to see Cuddle and I appreciate him understanding me being a pill.
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My eye are red right now and I have just cried with my mom and told her a lot of what is wrong with me. Not all but a lot. It helped I guess, at least now SHE is encouraging me to see Dr E. or Dr. Alison. At least to get it out but now I just still feel awful and I DON’T KNOW WHY!!!! the only words I can think of are a mess. Everything feels like a mess. Me, my life, my room, my relationships….everything….i just want to burn it all and start over. Throw away or sell everything, move to where NO ONE knows me a get a fresh start. I need to go to sleep. I tiered myself out crying….
(insert break of 30 minutes)
My eye are red right now and I have just cried with my mom and told her a lot of what is wrong with me. Not all but a lot. It helped I guess, at least now SHE is encouraging me to see Dr E. or Dr. Alison. At least to get it out but now I just still feel awful and I DON’T KNOW WHY!!!! the only words I can think of are a mess. Everything feels like a mess. Me, my life, my room, my relationships….everything….i just want to burn it all and start over. Throw away or sell everything, move to where NO ONE knows me a get a fresh start. I need to go to sleep. I tiered myself out crying….