Oy

[wolfcaroling]

Okay, so videos are uploading, but it's gonna take a while.

Option 1: 
Kitchen is bone white walls, with grey tile, and bone white cabinets. rosy taupe walls in hallway/living room. One bedroom has yellow walls, the other two are robin egg blue (might clash with our red satin sheets!). Cheap counters, all new stove and fridge. Laminate upstairs and

Comments

[anonymous]

OK. First, big hugs. I know it's hard to be disappointed and that you will probably hate everything you look at right now because you are comparing them all to the One That Got Away. You will find the right house - but don't settle just because you feel like you're on a deadline. You can always get your pre-approval extended but once you buy a place, you're in it, right

[wolfcaroling]

I think he's right, too. I've always had a tendency to depression. Even as a 10 year old kid I would have days where I was horribly down and would cry for no reason, and even then I suffered from insomnia. I remember crying at night as a kid, because it was one in the morning and I was so tired, but I just couldn't sleep.

I've never really sought treatment, though, because it's never been bad enough to be alarming. I don't want to hurt myself. I just want to cry a lot of the time... It doesn't seem like the kind of thing worth seeking medical help for. Seems like I more need a good kick in the pants.

[anonymous]

Depression doesn't necessarily equal suicidal. There are lots of people walking around in a fog, feeling - as you said in a recent post - alone and as if no one understands them; unable to have any perspective when life throws them a curveball because everything cuts the legs out from under them; eating & drinking their feelings and lying awake all night because their heads won't stop spinning... these people may not think about harming themselves but they aren't happy, either. And we all have a right to be happy.

I hope you get a decent night's sleep, and that things will look better in the morning.

[wolfcaroling]

Benn said the same thing. Well, not with those words, but you know.

[orenda]

That sounds exactly like depression

[anonymous]

^THIS^

*claps hands*

Exactly! Well put!

~ Hannah

[wolfcaroling]

Benn is going to take me down to the tri-cities mental health centre. According to my GP, who was too busy to do much more than prod my uterus and then fill out a blood sheet and remind me to take folic acid before trying for a baby, they have excellent nurses there who can get you a referral even faster than a GP can anyway.

Ugh.