lost
Well you know how that last time I wrote that I hadn't talked to julie? Well julie found someone else. aparently someone that is perfect for her. All I have to say is her loss. I put myself out there and she ran away. it hurts. but I'm sure that I will get over it. It is this Nicole situation that will be a little harder to deal with. Her telling me never to call her again and then hanging up on me after 3.5 years. after no matter what I have been there for her. always done whatever I could for her. Forgiven her when she cheated on me. but no. I am scum to her now. so I really don't know what to do it is the first time in 3.5 years that I don't have nicole there. I am freaking out a little. people tell me that it is for the best but I don't really see it. but I mean when you have every single person you know telling you that she is no good for you. you kinda pay attention. So now I don't have Jewels. And I gave up nicole for Jewels. So that really sux. I think that I could have been really good for Jewels. And while she may click with this new guy. I wonder if he is going to be good for her. I don't really think so but I can't really say anything because I don't know the guy. Jewels says "Let's still be Friends." ok I'll still be friends but it will really suck for me and hurt me more. at least for a while. but like I said I will get over it. And I hope to god that I get over Nicole. Because that is tearing me apart. yeah so my life kinda sucks right now. but it's just a low. and if this is as low as it get's(assuming that nothing else happens.) then I think that life won't be that bad. But man do I feel like shit. I feel like I've been stomped on and just left there to fix my own broken bones. This sucks. I have to go and buy some glass. It will make me feel better. alrighty then. buh bye.
Nick
Nick