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Come crashing in bottle in hand asking if you have black eyes. When you find the silence painful I tell you my most embarassing stories because it makes you laugh and I've never been embarassed in front of you. You kiss me goodbye, say sleep well because you will need your strength tomorrow, kiss me again and say that's for tomorrow. I say I'm scared. Tomorrow isn't any harder than any other day, right? Right. You were right. Whether it was a prophecy or a sentence I'll never know. I rolled over and over. I dreamt a thousand and one dreams of you. I dreamt of telling you how you looked on that rooftop in black and white (I dreamt of you film noir on a roof and we fell) of how I woke up and told you how i felt then I woke up. I dreamt of a girl stumbling, falling, crying out. Honey, are you okay? I said. I've never called anyone honey in my life. And when it came down to it I couldn't even tell you how much I love you. It rolled over and over. Til you could see it circulating behind my eyes. I did. Perhaps I shouldn't have. I touched her face and she screamed, kicked me in the stomach and I recoiled. I dreamt of christians that came poundingknocking at my door. evne though i had a sign on my door NO KNOCKINGPOUNDING BETWEEN THE HOURS OF FOUR AND NINE A.M. and it was early just getting light like when we are together but the pounding and I was sleeping. I came outside grabbed a girl with long brown hair. Shook her threatened to kill her. All the girls were having a party somewhere, I could hear it. I walked through the rooms in the complex nothing but intruding on dim justwaking strangers. but all the doors were open.