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Hey William, I'm not sorry I moved to las vegas, I love my life here. What you need to do is stop thinking how awful a mother I am and start thinking about bettering your life. we all have to take care of ourselves. especially as grown ups. I pray for you and I wish the best for you. I cannot be a part of your life until you stop feeling sorry for yourself and take some responsibilty for your situation. The hatred you feel for me is unfounded. I moved to another state when you were fourteen, just like thousands of other divorced parents do. I have no guilt for trying to better my life. I've worked very hard for a long time to be able to be settled and happy. You really need to forget about poor William who's mommy left him when he was thirteen. I didn't abandon you.Just go on with your life and get some help with your mommy issues. if there ever comes a time when you can move forward from your skewed view of your past and want to have a normal mother and son relationship let me know, otherwise find something else to blame your problems on. love Your mother
How fucking dare you. You vile fucking bitch. You're praying for me? You better hope hell doesn't exist, because if it does you're fucked.
I can't believe how condescending you are. Like fuck man, how can you be so ambivalent about it all? How are you so heartless, careless, thoughtless and cruel? Uncaring about my feelings? How can you be such an awful person? It doesn't fucking make sense. Why do you say such awful mean vile things? Is it because you really did move to las vegas and were happy to be rid of "spoiled bratty selfish" me? You say I wanted you to drive me everywhere, what the fuck was everywhere? School, lessons, and practice? Things most parents push on their kids, I wanted to be active on my own, and you did nothing but stifle that? The fuck was wrong with you? "We're not football type people" "college is for privileged kids only" "drop out of highschool and get a normal job at mcdonalds".
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHY THE FUCK DO YOU SAY THESE THINGS TO YOUR SON?? DID YOU NEVER HAVE ANY BELIEF IN ME OR MY ABILITIES? DID YOU THINK I WAS NOTHING? FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING SICK FUCKED UP BITCH. YOU ARE NOTHING. YOU ARE FUCKING DEAD TO ME. ALL OF YOU. YOU'RE ALL FUCKING SCUM. YOU ARE BENEATH ME. I DON'T NEED YOUR FUCKING APPROVAL OR FOR YOU TO SAY SORRY ANY MORE, BECAUSE YOU'RE JUST A SELFISH VILE BITCH AND YOU DID WHAT SELFISH VILE BITCHES DO. FUCK YOU BURN IN HELL. I RE WRIT HISTORY???? YOU FUCKING STOLE CHILD SUPPORT MONEY FROM MY DAD FOR A YEAR! THAT IS WHITE TRASH SCUMBAG SHIT, WHICH IS TO BE EXPECTED FROM A WHITE TRASH SCUMBAG. YOU DID NOTHING FOR ME IN ALL THE TROUBLES I WENT THROUGH GROWING UP. YOU LET ME LIVE WITH STRANGERS. WHEN I ASKED YOU FOR A LITTLE SUPPORT AS I WAS HAVING A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN IN THE SCHOOL PARKING LOT, BECAUSE I HAD TO WORK 40 HOURS TO AFFORD A PLACE TO LIVE IN WHILE I WAS WAITING FOR THE CHILD AND FUCKING FAMILY SERVICES HOUSE TO APPROVE MY APPLICATION, YOU TOLD ME TO GIVE UP. DON'T GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL. THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM? I NEEDED YOU TO SIGN A LETTER STATING YOU WERE MY MOTHER SO I COULD GO TO UNLV, AND WHAT DO YOU DO? TELL ME IT'S TOO DANGEROUS OUT THERE, AND OTHER BS, WHEN REALLY YOU JUST CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF ME SUCCEEDING, BECAUSE OF YOUR JEALOUS SPITEFUL NATURE? WELL FUCK YOU. WHEN I'M SITUATED WITH A GOOD PAYING JOB THAT MAKES A DIFFERENCE, HAPPY AND GREAT, IT WILL BE IN SPITE OF YOU. I WILL HAVE OVERCOME THE SHIT YOU PUT ME THROUGH, THE SHIT YOU DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT.
Remember all those concerts I was in? When I played in the Spartan drum and bugle corps? When I was int he New Hampshire Philharmonic? First in the state scores at All State? Jazz All State? Remember Manchester Choral Society, the multiple theater shows I played in? No, you don't. Because you decided against being in my life. You didn't give a fuck. I had a talent and a gift and you could give a fuck. The fuck can you do? Nothing. You're nothing. Your a bland white trash piece of shit who resented me for not being a boring scumbag like you. You're the fucking worst. I can't even believe you would say I was selfish for wanting you to "drive me everywhere", The fuck kind of warped, sick fucked up perspective do you have, where your son playing sports and music is a bad thing, because you might have to drive a little bit? And you call ME selfish? Like, It's so fucked up. It's like something out of fiction, that you can just blatatently and unsarcastically say that a 12 or 13 year old kid is selfish for wanting his mom to drive him to a violin lesson that he actively wants to be a part of. The fuck kind of life is Evan going to have? Are you going to leave him too? When he's 14, and if things don't work out with Chris, are you going to say fuck it, leave him, make him have to choose between his mother and father, and then blame him for it his entire life? Because your track record says you will. Your track record says you're a filthy piece of trash. You're scum. You're pathetic. You're a fucking monster.
And it's not just me either. The Burkes, Bains, Blackers, Lynn, The state of NH, Mr Hunter, Mr Adams, all had to pick up the slack because you couldn't be bothered.Who put me through drivers ED? Who allowed me to continue in music? Who drove me to school? Who brought me to football and baseball practice? Not my mother, that's for sure. Because your priorities are fucked up I had to rely on them. And they helped me out. . Do you know why? If I was the spoiled, bratty person you say I am, why would they help me? Because I'm not. They all saw potential in me, all saw me for what I could do. But not you. You, who always told me to aim low, to not achieve, you who selfishly and jealously told me not to do anything with my life. You are the fucking worst. Words can't even begin to express who fucking cold you are. There simply isn't any way to convey it. But when you fucking tell me I was the selfish one, that I am the one with the problem, and that you don't care and would do it all over again knowing full well the consequences, why the fuck did you even have me? Why the fuck didn't you just get out of my life sooner then so I would have never met you. The fuck good are you? You're a fucking piece of shit.
How fucking dare you. You vile fucking bitch. You're praying for me? You better hope hell doesn't exist, because if it does you're fucked.
I can't believe how condescending you are. Like fuck man, how can you be so ambivalent about it all? How are you so heartless, careless, thoughtless and cruel? Uncaring about my feelings? How can you be such an awful person? It doesn't fucking make sense. Why do you say such awful mean vile things? Is it because you really did move to las vegas and were happy to be rid of "spoiled bratty selfish" me? You say I wanted you to drive me everywhere, what the fuck was everywhere? School, lessons, and practice? Things most parents push on their kids, I wanted to be active on my own, and you did nothing but stifle that? The fuck was wrong with you? "We're not football type people" "college is for privileged kids only" "drop out of highschool and get a normal job at mcdonalds".
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHY THE FUCK DO YOU SAY THESE THINGS TO YOUR SON?? DID YOU NEVER HAVE ANY BELIEF IN ME OR MY ABILITIES? DID YOU THINK I WAS NOTHING? FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING SICK FUCKED UP BITCH. YOU ARE NOTHING. YOU ARE FUCKING DEAD TO ME. ALL OF YOU. YOU'RE ALL FUCKING SCUM. YOU ARE BENEATH ME. I DON'T NEED YOUR FUCKING APPROVAL OR FOR YOU TO SAY SORRY ANY MORE, BECAUSE YOU'RE JUST A SELFISH VILE BITCH AND YOU DID WHAT SELFISH VILE BITCHES DO. FUCK YOU BURN IN HELL. I RE WRIT HISTORY???? YOU FUCKING STOLE CHILD SUPPORT MONEY FROM MY DAD FOR A YEAR! THAT IS WHITE TRASH SCUMBAG SHIT, WHICH IS TO BE EXPECTED FROM A WHITE TRASH SCUMBAG. YOU DID NOTHING FOR ME IN ALL THE TROUBLES I WENT THROUGH GROWING UP. YOU LET ME LIVE WITH STRANGERS. WHEN I ASKED YOU FOR A LITTLE SUPPORT AS I WAS HAVING A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN IN THE SCHOOL PARKING LOT, BECAUSE I HAD TO WORK 40 HOURS TO AFFORD A PLACE TO LIVE IN WHILE I WAS WAITING FOR THE CHILD AND FUCKING FAMILY SERVICES HOUSE TO APPROVE MY APPLICATION, YOU TOLD ME TO GIVE UP. DON'T GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL. THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM? I NEEDED YOU TO SIGN A LETTER STATING YOU WERE MY MOTHER SO I COULD GO TO UNLV, AND WHAT DO YOU DO? TELL ME IT'S TOO DANGEROUS OUT THERE, AND OTHER BS, WHEN REALLY YOU JUST CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF ME SUCCEEDING, BECAUSE OF YOUR JEALOUS SPITEFUL NATURE? WELL FUCK YOU. WHEN I'M SITUATED WITH A GOOD PAYING JOB THAT MAKES A DIFFERENCE, HAPPY AND GREAT, IT WILL BE IN SPITE OF YOU. I WILL HAVE OVERCOME THE SHIT YOU PUT ME THROUGH, THE SHIT YOU DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT.
Remember all those concerts I was in? When I played in the Spartan drum and bugle corps? When I was int he New Hampshire Philharmonic? First in the state scores at All State? Jazz All State? Remember Manchester Choral Society, the multiple theater shows I played in? No, you don't. Because you decided against being in my life. You didn't give a fuck. I had a talent and a gift and you could give a fuck. The fuck can you do? Nothing. You're nothing. Your a bland white trash piece of shit who resented me for not being a boring scumbag like you. You're the fucking worst. I can't even believe you would say I was selfish for wanting you to "drive me everywhere", The fuck kind of warped, sick fucked up perspective do you have, where your son playing sports and music is a bad thing, because you might have to drive a little bit? And you call ME selfish? Like, It's so fucked up. It's like something out of fiction, that you can just blatatently and unsarcastically say that a 12 or 13 year old kid is selfish for wanting his mom to drive him to a violin lesson that he actively wants to be a part of. The fuck kind of life is Evan going to have? Are you going to leave him too? When he's 14, and if things don't work out with Chris, are you going to say fuck it, leave him, make him have to choose between his mother and father, and then blame him for it his entire life? Because your track record says you will. Your track record says you're a filthy piece of trash. You're scum. You're pathetic. You're a fucking monster.
And it's not just me either. The Burkes, Bains, Blackers, Lynn, The state of NH, Mr Hunter, Mr Adams, all had to pick up the slack because you couldn't be bothered.Who put me through drivers ED? Who allowed me to continue in music? Who drove me to school? Who brought me to football and baseball practice? Not my mother, that's for sure. Because your priorities are fucked up I had to rely on them. And they helped me out. . Do you know why? If I was the spoiled, bratty person you say I am, why would they help me? Because I'm not. They all saw potential in me, all saw me for what I could do. But not you. You, who always told me to aim low, to not achieve, you who selfishly and jealously told me not to do anything with my life. You are the fucking worst. Words can't even begin to express who fucking cold you are. There simply isn't any way to convey it. But when you fucking tell me I was the selfish one, that I am the one with the problem, and that you don't care and would do it all over again knowing full well the consequences, why the fuck did you even have me? Why the fuck didn't you just get out of my life sooner then so I would have never met you. The fuck good are you? You're a fucking piece of shit.