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I had like 5 different dreams about Al last night and not one of them was good. In one dream he was secretly watching gore porn. People covered in blood having sex and shit (probably a result of watching Hostel Part II right before I went to bed). In another, we had a big party with all of our friends at these really long tables. I had this delicious pizza and he purposely ruined it for me. In another dream he had a secret computer...and on it there was a journal from when he was in Iraq...and he only said he missed me in it once.
I also got in a fight with his grandmother (who is dead) and refused to have lunch with her because I was so angry she tried to tell me what the best laundry detergent was.
To claify this next one, I'll have to point out that Al has been gone all week doing some stupid Army stuff. He is supposed to come back either today or tomorrow. So I dreamed he came in and started cuddling with me while I was still asleep this morning. Cuddling led to sexing...or would have if his penis had become so long and thin that it was like a broom handle!! IT WAS DISGUSTING. WTF IS THAT. I know there was another dream where I think he cheated on me or something...but I can't remember it as vividly as the others.
So all I have to say is...WHAT THE HELL SUBCONSCIOUS!? I'm just trying to have a good night's rest and then you throw this bullshit at me so my sleep is all broken up and I wake up sad and nervous. Fuck you man. I don't wish I dreamed less vividly, I just wish it would end with the dreams. Now that I'm awake I still feel all shaken up and nervous and mildly upset.
I also got in a fight with his grandmother (who is dead) and refused to have lunch with her because I was so angry she tried to tell me what the best laundry detergent was.
To claify this next one, I'll have to point out that Al has been gone all week doing some stupid Army stuff. He is supposed to come back either today or tomorrow. So I dreamed he came in and started cuddling with me while I was still asleep this morning. Cuddling led to sexing...or would have if his penis had become so long and thin that it was like a broom handle!! IT WAS DISGUSTING. WTF IS THAT. I know there was another dream where I think he cheated on me or something...but I can't remember it as vividly as the others.
So all I have to say is...WHAT THE HELL SUBCONSCIOUS!? I'm just trying to have a good night's rest and then you throw this bullshit at me so my sleep is all broken up and I wake up sad and nervous. Fuck you man. I don't wish I dreamed less vividly, I just wish it would end with the dreams. Now that I'm awake I still feel all shaken up and nervous and mildly upset.