what the hell dude...
i don't know what i did wrong, but i'm pretty sure that i don't deserve this.no call, no contact in 4 days...everything was fine, i was patient with everyone, and everything; till tonight...when he called his buddy;actually ex buddy, but couldn't call me, and he can call someone in virginia, but not me...i have no idea what i did..none, what so ever..but obviously i'm the bad guy...i'm so confused right now...
::*::*actually, hurt...i haven't been hurt like this in a long time.what is goin on dude...that's all i wanna know..::*::
i care for him so much, yet at times he seems oblivious to the fact...i've bent over backwards for him, and if that's not good enough, there's nothing else i can do.
i've ditched my best of friends for him, just to sort things out, i've tried my hardest, i just want things to be back to normal.
god i really hope theres a reasonable explaination for this...omg...the stress is killing me.it really is.
i called his moms tonight; of course he was gone, but hey; she said she'd have him call me next time she saw him.hopefully all goes well...
i just hope i'm over reacting, and things are okay, cus honestly, i don't know what i could've done wrong...
i have a strict philosophy on things like this...for someone being hurt so bad, things can only get better from here on out.
i'm not one who handles hurt well either...i keep things bottled, until i can't take it anymore, and quite frankly i hate it.i put on my happy face so others are happy, and that's just the way i do things.i do it this way, cus i hate others to see me upset, just because they don't see me like this alot; if ever...not like bitchy upset, but crying upset.
i'm done ranting for now, i need to sleep on this, goodnight world, i hope things aren't going as rough for you guys as they are for me right now...<3kim*
::*::*actually, hurt...i haven't been hurt like this in a long time.what is goin on dude...that's all i wanna know..::*::
i care for him so much, yet at times he seems oblivious to the fact...i've bent over backwards for him, and if that's not good enough, there's nothing else i can do.
i've ditched my best of friends for him, just to sort things out, i've tried my hardest, i just want things to be back to normal.
god i really hope theres a reasonable explaination for this...omg...the stress is killing me.it really is.
i called his moms tonight; of course he was gone, but hey; she said she'd have him call me next time she saw him.hopefully all goes well...
i just hope i'm over reacting, and things are okay, cus honestly, i don't know what i could've done wrong...
i have a strict philosophy on things like this...for someone being hurt so bad, things can only get better from here on out.
i'm not one who handles hurt well either...i keep things bottled, until i can't take it anymore, and quite frankly i hate it.i put on my happy face so others are happy, and that's just the way i do things.i do it this way, cus i hate others to see me upset, just because they don't see me like this alot; if ever...not like bitchy upset, but crying upset.
i'm done ranting for now, i need to sleep on this, goodnight world, i hope things aren't going as rough for you guys as they are for me right now...<3kim*