it's isn't the "why"s just the "when"s
So I think that because I'm as tipsy/drunk as I am right now that I'm writing anything... that and the fact that I'm reading a fanfiction that is pretty much about relationships... but I certainly wouldn't be this honest without the alcohol next to me...
Anyways... Zach and I broke up. It was his decision. The "why"s wasn't a surprise, it was the "when." I seriously knew that a "discussion" was in the works, but I didn't know that it would lead to a break up.
I knew there were things to be fixed, mostly on my end. I was too selfish. I was too absorbed.
Erica mentioned that I really shouldn't have had to change to be the girl he wanted his girlfriend to be. The girl with the same likes and dislikes. But I think I could have been her. He just didn't give me the opportunity. He thought too much about what I wanted, and really didn't give me a chance to be what he wanted me to be.
Sure I watch alot of TV and drink (a bit) with my friends. At the bars. But that isn't what defines me. I don't even KNOW what defines me. I HAVEN'T A CLUE WHAT DEFINE ME... WHO AM I?!? I think I could have been what he wanted - a girl that didn't watch TV, a girl that didn't drink, a girl that (especially) liked what he liked. I just wasn't given the chance.
Tonight, when I realized where the conversation was going, I pretty much gave him the choice. I told him what I was willing to do to fix the relationship - it wasn't a lost caused, just a "broken caused that needed lots of work".
The problem was that we were TOO different, and while I was willing to work through it, according to Erica, CHANGE myself, his "heart just wasn't into it anymore." He couldn't move past the "road blocks" anymore.
This wasn't an opposites attract moment. This was an attract moment then the opposite got in the way. He was a country-boy and I was a city-girl. I believe I could have changed but wasn't given the chance. I never got the chance to shoot a gun or go hunting or fishing, or pretty much anything he liked to do.
He deserves a girl with his likes and dislikes. We liked and disliked the exact opposite things. In the end, he believed there was no way around that. I thought there was. Sure, everything may not have gotten better, but it sure wouldn't have gotten worse.
At the end of this relationship (which lasted 5 months and just about 10 days)
Well, I've broken down now... I'll continue later.
Anyways... Zach and I broke up. It was his decision. The "why"s wasn't a surprise, it was the "when." I seriously knew that a "discussion" was in the works, but I didn't know that it would lead to a break up.
I knew there were things to be fixed, mostly on my end. I was too selfish. I was too absorbed.
Erica mentioned that I really shouldn't have had to change to be the girl he wanted his girlfriend to be. The girl with the same likes and dislikes. But I think I could have been her. He just didn't give me the opportunity. He thought too much about what I wanted, and really didn't give me a chance to be what he wanted me to be.
Sure I watch alot of TV and drink (a bit) with my friends. At the bars. But that isn't what defines me. I don't even KNOW what defines me. I HAVEN'T A CLUE WHAT DEFINE ME... WHO AM I?!? I think I could have been what he wanted - a girl that didn't watch TV, a girl that didn't drink, a girl that (especially) liked what he liked. I just wasn't given the chance.
Tonight, when I realized where the conversation was going, I pretty much gave him the choice. I told him what I was willing to do to fix the relationship - it wasn't a lost caused, just a "broken caused that needed lots of work".
The problem was that we were TOO different, and while I was willing to work through it, according to Erica, CHANGE myself, his "heart just wasn't into it anymore." He couldn't move past the "road blocks" anymore.
This wasn't an opposites attract moment. This was an attract moment then the opposite got in the way. He was a country-boy and I was a city-girl. I believe I could have changed but wasn't given the chance. I never got the chance to shoot a gun or go hunting or fishing, or pretty much anything he liked to do.
He deserves a girl with his likes and dislikes. We liked and disliked the exact opposite things. In the end, he believed there was no way around that. I thought there was. Sure, everything may not have gotten better, but it sure wouldn't have gotten worse.
At the end of this relationship (which lasted 5 months and just about 10 days)
Well, I've broken down now... I'll continue later.