Over the weekend I found words to express the anxiety that tends to hum in the background of my consciousness every day. I'm afraid that no matter what I do, I won't have enough money to do all I need (and want) to do in life. It doesn't help that I am making much less right now than I was making when I worked as a hardware engineer. Furthermore ( Read more... )

Janelle Monáe has my brain on fire. For a little while I thought I might be having a celebrity crush on her, but that isn't the case ( Read more... )

Yesterday I spoke with someone I like and respect. She asked me about my job, and I told her. She was not impressed, and she didn't hide that fact. "Are you going to eventually go back into the technical side of things?" she asked, concerned I was giving up on my IT studies and turning my back on my technical background. "When you first started ( Read more... )

This weekend (all three days of it, as T had Friday off) was about the beauty of ordinariness. We didn't do anything exciting or out of the ordinary, and I did not allow my brain to roam much further than what I was doing right at that moment ( Read more... )

I am in the computer lab at school, attempting to do practice questions for the 70-291 exam. While I have done five times as many questions today as I did each of the previous two days of the week, I became easily distracted after buckling down for the first 10 ( Read more... )

Mentally exhausted, I declared today a half-day from work. Instead of staying glued to my computer desk, I sprawled on the floor with my art markers, paper journal, television remote, and toys for some play time ( Read more... )

I think I have figured out why I enjoy watching educational children's programming so much, specifically programs geared for children in preschool through second grade: the lessons presented to that age group are simple and generally do not involve extended angst or complicated communication snafus. (Programming geared towards older children often ( Read more... )

A young lady I used to mentor has taken on a "Queen" name and joined The Nation of Gods and Earths (also known as The Five Percenters). She seems happy in the photos and posts I have seen on her Myspace page, and she currently lives among other Five Percenters. While I do not embrace their beliefs, I respect and appreciate that this conversion ( Read more... )

How dare I consider someone's criticism of me and not change my behavior in accordance with their opinion? How dare I decide someone else's viewpoint makes no sense? How dare I decide my viewpoint is more applicable to my life than their viewpoint is and dismiss what they have said ( Read more... )

There could be drama, but I found healthy ways to handle my angst. I gave my bathroom a thorough cleaning. I updated my photoblog. I made some calls. I clipped the cats' nails. I rescheduled hanging out with a friend who had to tend to an emergency at work. I intend to go out to the park for a ride in a little while.

I feel much better.

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