"Why do people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?"

at some point today

i was pretty sure that i had found happiness and peace within myself

it lasted all of ten minutes

and then the doubts and insecurities came flooding back.

when i originally started the laptop up i was determined to write and rant about how angry i was over what a friend of mine said about another friend of mine today. i was ready to complain about how some people are so closed-minded, they would judge another person based on his ethnic background and race. how DARE he judge my friend like that, how ( Read more... )

mom keeps urging me to pack my things; i've got less than a fortnight left in this place. i can't wait to empty my ugly beige shelves of nineteen years of stuff, but then again, how do i pack my life away without a heavy heart?


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it pisses me off that the littlest things don't even satisfy my brother. i keep asking why the fuck is he so nitpicky, why the fuck is he so jealous over everything i have when he can pretty much do WHATEVER he wants, WHENEVER he wants, without my parents batting an eyelid. me? i screw up once, and shit hits the fan ( Read more... )

i was supposed to blog happy pictures tonight, but something inside deliberately stopped me from doing it. laziness? contempt? regret? i wasn't happy enough for a happy post? maybe. but it ultimately brought me to think about the unhappiness this week ( Read more... )

pen to paper, fingers flying over keys.

words into sentences, sentences into paragraphs, paragraphs into thoughts, stories, meaning.

hello, friends. it's been a while. it's time to make good use of you.

happy new year, LJ ( Read more... )

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after today?

i have nothing but pure love for my city and the people of various nationalities that populate it :)

Moritz, i hope you have a safe return to Indonesia, yahyah?