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Title: Too little too late 2/?
Pairing: Colin/Ryan Colin/Jeff
Rating: G
Summary: Colin's POV, Ryan and Colin are happy together until Jeff walks into Colin's life he is stunned at the young mans beauty and skill, where does that leave Ryan ?
Once again sorry about my lack of skills at this
“Morning Col” I woke to the image of a half naked Jeff lying next to me. He had a cheeky grin plastered all over his face, as usual and looked simply beautiful with that messy hair of his all over his face. I was speechless, I mean I had only just met the guy! Well I only talked to him while we were doing a scene together in tapings but this was ridiculous! Oh My God! was all I could think when my memory recalled something about Ryan last night I just couldn’t think of what it was and Ryan, he was my lover not Jeff but there I was with Jeff snuggling into me.
“I ..I gotta go” I tried pushing him off of me, no good, he wouldn’t move.
“Your not going anywhere” he looked so sexy it was hard to move away. I suddenly thought of Ryan and how much it would hurt him, I didn’t want to hurt him, of course I didn’t I was just so confused.
Jeff then became very inpatient, I always looked miles away when I was thinking, so he began moving on top of me, it defiantly snapped me out of my thoughts, he had that same smile on his face. I tried not to gasp at the sudden contact. He knew what he was doing to me and loved every second of it. He was so light and young, I was almost 50!! I pushed him backward so I could then be on top, oh how I wanted to kiss him, his tempting lips just crying out to me. It was like he read my mind when he came up to press his lips against mine, it was pure bliss. As much as I wanted it to last, wanted to feel every part of the young man , wanted to go through that whole night over and over…I pulled away quickly, and ran to pick up my clothes
“See ya later” I could still feel Jeff staring at me I knew he wasn‘t mad just amused I knew I had to face him sooner or later
. It was the fastest I had ever ran in my life, I just wanted to get away, he was like a drug I wanted more. As these thoughts crossed my mind I heard laughter behind me ..
“hey col, you forget anything?” it was Greg, I wondered what he meant, that was when I looked down. Yes, I was naked in the studio hall way, not one of my smartest moves. Greg burst out into laughter as I ran into the janitors closet to get changed, god Greg annoyed me sometimes but it was a good thing it was only Greg, he has seen pretty much all of us naked anyways. I could still hear his laughter outside the door as I struggled to pull my trousers on , it didn’t help that there was no light at all in the bloody closet. I thought it couldn’t get any worse.
“Greg , you seen Colin anywhere?” Jeff was looking for me, Great. I just hoped that Greg was smart enough to send him away. I waited in the darkness, I wouldn’t dare make a sound it was to risky . I was in a closet! And knowing Jeff he would probably force me to stay in here for a couple more hours.
I struggled to hear Greg’s response but I had been in there for a good 10 minutes so I guess he sent Jeff away. I breathed a sigh of relief, I couldn’t do that to Ryan, not again. I loved Ryan to much I’d hate to see him hurt, I don’t deserve a guy as special or as amazing as Ryan. Events from the last night started sinking in, I would have to tell Ryan, I couldn’t face him knowing what I had done.
I hadn’t cried in a long time, I couldn’t remember when the last time was but I couldn’t stop myself, in the dark was the only place I could cry, away from every body else. I hated to cry in front of every one. My sobs echoed all around the small closet. Ryan ..I’m sorry.
The door to the closet swung open, I gasped at the sudden burst of light coming from outside. I was prepared for Jeff to be stood waiting, that grin never leaving his face but no it was Greg, his jaw dropping to the ground at the pitiful sight before him.
“Col…Your crying?? What’s up bud?” Now Greg was one of those people you could just tell everything to, he was on nobody’s side he was there to listen rather like out own private counsellor really. I looked deeply into his eyes tears still rolling down my cheeks, I stepped out of the confining space the light still burning my eyes and fell into Greg’s awaiting arms. The warmth radiating from Greg was comforting, he was always there when you needed him. He was actually quite shocked he had never seen me cry, no one had. It was one of my many secrets. Now I had one more to add to the ever growing list. He reached into his pocket and handed me a tissue, good old Greg he comes prepared for anything.
“Now what’s up Col? You know you can talk to me”
Greg was surprisingly calm at what I had told him, if I had of told Wayne he would of fainted on me and I didn’t want that happening again. He tightened his grip around me.
“You gotta tell Ryan” he pulled me up to look him straight in the eyes, It was the right thing to do, I never thought this would ever happen not in a million years but I suppose …all good things must come to an end, even if I love him to pieces. I couldn’t hold back my tears, my heart broke at the thought of losing Ryan I needed him, he Is the reason I breath, the reason I live and love. Now he was the reason I cry,.. I needed to find him.
My mind couldn’t help but think of Jeff, sweet, young Jeff, In a way I suppose…I love…him. He made me weak and gave me butterflies whenever I heard his voice, that angelic voice. Over and Over I fall for him and he does nothing but be perfect. I try with everything I have merely not to look at him but he pulls me in with just one look of those sparkling eyes. it leaves me breathless.
“I know” That’s all I managed to say, that’s all I wanted to say. Greg loosened his grip and lead me in through the stage door where the Ryan was sat. My feet wouldn’t let me go any further, my whole body wouldn’t, I just wanted to be 1 million miles away right now.
Tears began to form again and I was shaking , shaking so bad but I had to go over to him. I wiped the tears away from my eyes and gave Greg a weak smile which he returned with a pat on the back. Every step that I took was a step towards the end, the end of me and Ryan the end of everything. My world was about the fall in. I took a deep breathe and walked briskly over to Ryan.
He looked up at me but then pretended to not have seen me and was now looking at something, I’m sure was interesting on the carpet.
“Ry.. I have to…” I was cut off by Ryan before I could finish
“ I’m surprised you showed up for work today!” I started shaking again, I thought he may of found out, I would of killed Greg.
“Wha?? What are you ..t ..talking ..a. about” I must of seemed like a right idiot, I had a stutter and was sweating like crazy, Ryan just looked at me with an unreadable expression. He wasn’t sure whether to continue but he did.
“You were meant to show up for dinner yesterday and you were to busy doing…god knows what” oh I was doing something alright. Images of the previous night crept into my mind, the way he had moaned my name was indescribable. I was lost in that though when I realised I hadn’t heard anything Ryan had just said. oh shit.
“I…I’m so sorry Ryan , I wasn’t there last night because….I …w ..was … shopping!! for ..a present ..for you!! …” It didn’t go exactly as planned but in fact I wasn’t lying, sort of, I had got him a present. I wanted the best for Ryan, I would give him the world if I could, unfortunately I’m rubbish at shopping for presents, I once got Wayne some soap for his birthday, I really was sorry for that gift my excuse was I had very little time, so I got him some soap.. Yeah….that’s the first thing you think of when you have no time….anyway !
I had gotten Ryan a gold ring, see ..hopeless at shopping! I just wanted him to be mine and no one else’s and that ring would be that symbol.
“really? You got me ..a present, aww col ! You shouldn’t have” he was smiling now and I was so glad, I thought I would never see him smile again. I wrapped my arms around him and treasured that moment, I wanted to hug him forever, to stay in his warm embrace.
“..I Love you” I Meant it, I meant it with all my heart
“I Love you too” we were both smiling at each other, I said sorry for not being with him last night, I couldn’t tell him about Jeff, not yet I wanted to be with Ryan and that’s the way it was going to stay. But still the guilt stung in my heart.
Everything was perfect. Until, I heard a familiar voice the voice of an angel.. or was it the devil.
“Hey Greg, where’s Colin?” Jeff came strolling towards me and Ryan with a evil grin on his face.
Oh no…..
Pairing: Colin/Ryan Colin/Jeff
Rating: G
Summary: Colin's POV, Ryan and Colin are happy together until Jeff walks into Colin's life he is stunned at the young mans beauty and skill, where does that leave Ryan ?
Once again sorry about my lack of skills at this
“Morning Col” I woke to the image of a half naked Jeff lying next to me. He had a cheeky grin plastered all over his face, as usual and looked simply beautiful with that messy hair of his all over his face. I was speechless, I mean I had only just met the guy! Well I only talked to him while we were doing a scene together in tapings but this was ridiculous! Oh My God! was all I could think when my memory recalled something about Ryan last night I just couldn’t think of what it was and Ryan, he was my lover not Jeff but there I was with Jeff snuggling into me.
“I ..I gotta go” I tried pushing him off of me, no good, he wouldn’t move.
“Your not going anywhere” he looked so sexy it was hard to move away. I suddenly thought of Ryan and how much it would hurt him, I didn’t want to hurt him, of course I didn’t I was just so confused.
Jeff then became very inpatient, I always looked miles away when I was thinking, so he began moving on top of me, it defiantly snapped me out of my thoughts, he had that same smile on his face. I tried not to gasp at the sudden contact. He knew what he was doing to me and loved every second of it. He was so light and young, I was almost 50!! I pushed him backward so I could then be on top, oh how I wanted to kiss him, his tempting lips just crying out to me. It was like he read my mind when he came up to press his lips against mine, it was pure bliss. As much as I wanted it to last, wanted to feel every part of the young man , wanted to go through that whole night over and over…I pulled away quickly, and ran to pick up my clothes
“See ya later” I could still feel Jeff staring at me I knew he wasn‘t mad just amused I knew I had to face him sooner or later
. It was the fastest I had ever ran in my life, I just wanted to get away, he was like a drug I wanted more. As these thoughts crossed my mind I heard laughter behind me ..
“hey col, you forget anything?” it was Greg, I wondered what he meant, that was when I looked down. Yes, I was naked in the studio hall way, not one of my smartest moves. Greg burst out into laughter as I ran into the janitors closet to get changed, god Greg annoyed me sometimes but it was a good thing it was only Greg, he has seen pretty much all of us naked anyways. I could still hear his laughter outside the door as I struggled to pull my trousers on , it didn’t help that there was no light at all in the bloody closet. I thought it couldn’t get any worse.
“Greg , you seen Colin anywhere?” Jeff was looking for me, Great. I just hoped that Greg was smart enough to send him away. I waited in the darkness, I wouldn’t dare make a sound it was to risky . I was in a closet! And knowing Jeff he would probably force me to stay in here for a couple more hours.
I struggled to hear Greg’s response but I had been in there for a good 10 minutes so I guess he sent Jeff away. I breathed a sigh of relief, I couldn’t do that to Ryan, not again. I loved Ryan to much I’d hate to see him hurt, I don’t deserve a guy as special or as amazing as Ryan. Events from the last night started sinking in, I would have to tell Ryan, I couldn’t face him knowing what I had done.
I hadn’t cried in a long time, I couldn’t remember when the last time was but I couldn’t stop myself, in the dark was the only place I could cry, away from every body else. I hated to cry in front of every one. My sobs echoed all around the small closet. Ryan ..I’m sorry.
The door to the closet swung open, I gasped at the sudden burst of light coming from outside. I was prepared for Jeff to be stood waiting, that grin never leaving his face but no it was Greg, his jaw dropping to the ground at the pitiful sight before him.
“Col…Your crying?? What’s up bud?” Now Greg was one of those people you could just tell everything to, he was on nobody’s side he was there to listen rather like out own private counsellor really. I looked deeply into his eyes tears still rolling down my cheeks, I stepped out of the confining space the light still burning my eyes and fell into Greg’s awaiting arms. The warmth radiating from Greg was comforting, he was always there when you needed him. He was actually quite shocked he had never seen me cry, no one had. It was one of my many secrets. Now I had one more to add to the ever growing list. He reached into his pocket and handed me a tissue, good old Greg he comes prepared for anything.
“Now what’s up Col? You know you can talk to me”
Greg was surprisingly calm at what I had told him, if I had of told Wayne he would of fainted on me and I didn’t want that happening again. He tightened his grip around me.
“You gotta tell Ryan” he pulled me up to look him straight in the eyes, It was the right thing to do, I never thought this would ever happen not in a million years but I suppose …all good things must come to an end, even if I love him to pieces. I couldn’t hold back my tears, my heart broke at the thought of losing Ryan I needed him, he Is the reason I breath, the reason I live and love. Now he was the reason I cry,.. I needed to find him.
My mind couldn’t help but think of Jeff, sweet, young Jeff, In a way I suppose…I love…him. He made me weak and gave me butterflies whenever I heard his voice, that angelic voice. Over and Over I fall for him and he does nothing but be perfect. I try with everything I have merely not to look at him but he pulls me in with just one look of those sparkling eyes. it leaves me breathless.
“I know” That’s all I managed to say, that’s all I wanted to say. Greg loosened his grip and lead me in through the stage door where the Ryan was sat. My feet wouldn’t let me go any further, my whole body wouldn’t, I just wanted to be 1 million miles away right now.
Tears began to form again and I was shaking , shaking so bad but I had to go over to him. I wiped the tears away from my eyes and gave Greg a weak smile which he returned with a pat on the back. Every step that I took was a step towards the end, the end of me and Ryan the end of everything. My world was about the fall in. I took a deep breathe and walked briskly over to Ryan.
He looked up at me but then pretended to not have seen me and was now looking at something, I’m sure was interesting on the carpet.
“Ry.. I have to…” I was cut off by Ryan before I could finish
“ I’m surprised you showed up for work today!” I started shaking again, I thought he may of found out, I would of killed Greg.
“Wha?? What are you ..t ..talking ..a. about” I must of seemed like a right idiot, I had a stutter and was sweating like crazy, Ryan just looked at me with an unreadable expression. He wasn’t sure whether to continue but he did.
“You were meant to show up for dinner yesterday and you were to busy doing…god knows what” oh I was doing something alright. Images of the previous night crept into my mind, the way he had moaned my name was indescribable. I was lost in that though when I realised I hadn’t heard anything Ryan had just said. oh shit.
“I…I’m so sorry Ryan , I wasn’t there last night because….I …w ..was … shopping!! for ..a present ..for you!! …” It didn’t go exactly as planned but in fact I wasn’t lying, sort of, I had got him a present. I wanted the best for Ryan, I would give him the world if I could, unfortunately I’m rubbish at shopping for presents, I once got Wayne some soap for his birthday, I really was sorry for that gift my excuse was I had very little time, so I got him some soap.. Yeah….that’s the first thing you think of when you have no time….anyway !
I had gotten Ryan a gold ring, see ..hopeless at shopping! I just wanted him to be mine and no one else’s and that ring would be that symbol.
“really? You got me ..a present, aww col ! You shouldn’t have” he was smiling now and I was so glad, I thought I would never see him smile again. I wrapped my arms around him and treasured that moment, I wanted to hug him forever, to stay in his warm embrace.
“..I Love you” I Meant it, I meant it with all my heart
“I Love you too” we were both smiling at each other, I said sorry for not being with him last night, I couldn’t tell him about Jeff, not yet I wanted to be with Ryan and that’s the way it was going to stay. But still the guilt stung in my heart.
Everything was perfect. Until, I heard a familiar voice the voice of an angel.. or was it the devil.
“Hey Greg, where’s Colin?” Jeff came strolling towards me and Ryan with a evil grin on his face.
Oh no…..