Post 41: Returning to the Scene of the Crime For One Last Time
I've officially been back in UNH for a week now. I came back for Welcome Wagon last week -- basically helping the new freshmen move in. It was nice to see old friends again and it was really nice to move in early for a change instead of getting in and having to make room out of limited space. I was the first one in, so I had first pick of everything. It's a nice room -- much more space, not nearly as cramped up as last year -- and I've got my little corner all to myself. I think I've brought more stuff up here than ever, with my keyboard and stands added to the list of stuff now. As far as the roomates go, I know most of them ahead of time so it's not a real feeling-out process. It kinda feels like a clubhouse or treehouse-type atmosphere in here, really... no girls allowed, video games galore... I kinda feel like a teenager again instead of a full-on adult like last year. It's Guitar Hero now instead of Madden. Can't complain about any of the guys really... even though most of the time it's me and Will in the room.
What's really nice is that I know people on the floor as well. Laura's old crew is in my old room 306 so I can go over there to hang out with them. It's cool to hang out in my old room and it's also cool to hang out and get to know Laura's friends without her being there. I know Ash already but Steph is really fun -- definitely replaces Laura on the fun level. Only thing is, she has a bf which is actually not a problem as there's a boundary there that can't be crossed; with that in place, I know the limits and I can be as free as I want, no attachments -- can't be attached cuz ain't nothin' gonna happen. Ash has been a blast to hang out with too. Now without Laura, it's just her and I can get to know her and have fun with her on her own instead of looking at her as "Laura's roomate." Matter of fact, both Steph and Ash beat my ass in poker a few nights ago so they're already high on the coolness scale.
The most surprising thing for me so far is how relaxed everything's been and how much fun I'm actually having. Like, this past week it was either Guitar Hero in the room, going to 306 or going to Sheffield and chillin' with Katlyn. It's been one fun time after another, which coming into this year, I wasn't totally expecting. I'll admit, the last six months have mellowed me out and kinda forced me to look at things in a different perspective and (to put it bluntly) lighten up, but I didn't think I'd actually do it, to be honest. Everyday's a struggle but I'm aware of it for once and I don't feel all too weird about it. It kinda feels cool not to take myself so seriously.
I guess it's a liberation to not be sure of anything anymore -- I have nothing to lose because everything's all gone. I'm starting over again... or at least retracing my steps and going down a different path. I feel ok about it.
Then again, it's only been one week.
What's really nice is that I know people on the floor as well. Laura's old crew is in my old room 306 so I can go over there to hang out with them. It's cool to hang out in my old room and it's also cool to hang out and get to know Laura's friends without her being there. I know Ash already but Steph is really fun -- definitely replaces Laura on the fun level. Only thing is, she has a bf which is actually not a problem as there's a boundary there that can't be crossed; with that in place, I know the limits and I can be as free as I want, no attachments -- can't be attached cuz ain't nothin' gonna happen. Ash has been a blast to hang out with too. Now without Laura, it's just her and I can get to know her and have fun with her on her own instead of looking at her as "Laura's roomate." Matter of fact, both Steph and Ash beat my ass in poker a few nights ago so they're already high on the coolness scale.
The most surprising thing for me so far is how relaxed everything's been and how much fun I'm actually having. Like, this past week it was either Guitar Hero in the room, going to 306 or going to Sheffield and chillin' with Katlyn. It's been one fun time after another, which coming into this year, I wasn't totally expecting. I'll admit, the last six months have mellowed me out and kinda forced me to look at things in a different perspective and (to put it bluntly) lighten up, but I didn't think I'd actually do it, to be honest. Everyday's a struggle but I'm aware of it for once and I don't feel all too weird about it. It kinda feels cool not to take myself so seriously.
I guess it's a liberation to not be sure of anything anymore -- I have nothing to lose because everything's all gone. I'm starting over again... or at least retracing my steps and going down a different path. I feel ok about it.
Then again, it's only been one week.