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True love...
"i love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you"
"I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me"
"I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make my happy"
"You have done it without a touch, without a word, without a sign"
You have done it by being yourself. Perhaps that is what being in love means after all..
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God, I'm so in love!
There's just some things in life that seem too good to be true and this has GOT to be one of them! I feel so lucky ,so content with everything in my life.Thought i guess some things could be better but i still feel like my life is meaningful!And i love someone right now more then i've loved anyone and i'm way grateful for a love like this.
I just really wonder what life would be like right now if i didnt have him by my side?True, life would go on,but ya know...i'm not so sure if i can even ponder the thought of NOT having him in my life!He means everything and more to me than he'll ever know.Dunno if i could really ever explain but it all makes perfect sense to me!In my mind,and in my world the pieces of the puzzle fit.
Sometimes i wonder what could've been if i went down another path.What if i'd married Miguel and moved to Puerto Rico,what if i'd studied abroad? what if i went to FIU?,SO MANY QUESTIONS,A million different outcomes. But i'm MOST happy with the choice i have meade!i think i'm much happier with where i am in my life then i would be with any of the above mentioned.Truthfully i think all the other options were ways out.An escape from Pensacola,and all the Bull shit.But in reality i dont think it would've made me any happier to pick up and leave.I've done more for myself,and learned more about me then i ever thought i would.I've grown so much.i'm more independent,happier,more appreciative and humble,more caring and thoughtful.I think its done me some good to stay in this small town.
I read some of my old entires from over the years an realized how shitty my life was back then. All that Crap i endured.I was such a sad girl!I wanted to cry reading about how depressed i was and how i use to have suicidal thoughts.I coudlnt even believe that was me! i guess when i decided to forget and move on , i really did erase all of those memories from my mind completely!I dont know how i made it through,but looking back,i think i was stronger then i thought.I think i underestimated how much in me i really have!
I dunno, i guess i'm just happy! No...ECSTATIC... and overjoyed that i'm 19,i'm alive,i truly love someone with all my heart!,i'm confident,i'm intelligent,i'm strong,i'm scarred but i'm healed now,i'm independent,i'm resolved,my glass is half full and i'm in love with life and the idea that my future could bring so much more!!
i have something to offer,to bring to the table!my abuela always said that each half(of a whole..a husband,a relationship..whatever pair) should bring something.and i think i do!i have experiences and lessons!I've watched and learned and here i am, ready for anything an everything.Taking life one step at a time,Careful and Cautious,but free and determined!
"i love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you"
"I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me"
"I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make my happy"
"You have done it without a touch, without a word, without a sign"
You have done it by being yourself. Perhaps that is what being in love means after all..
\\
God, I'm so in love!
There's just some things in life that seem too good to be true and this has GOT to be one of them! I feel so lucky ,so content with everything in my life.Thought i guess some things could be better but i still feel like my life is meaningful!And i love someone right now more then i've loved anyone and i'm way grateful for a love like this.
I just really wonder what life would be like right now if i didnt have him by my side?True, life would go on,but ya know...i'm not so sure if i can even ponder the thought of NOT having him in my life!He means everything and more to me than he'll ever know.Dunno if i could really ever explain but it all makes perfect sense to me!In my mind,and in my world the pieces of the puzzle fit.
Sometimes i wonder what could've been if i went down another path.What if i'd married Miguel and moved to Puerto Rico,what if i'd studied abroad? what if i went to FIU?,SO MANY QUESTIONS,A million different outcomes. But i'm MOST happy with the choice i have meade!i think i'm much happier with where i am in my life then i would be with any of the above mentioned.Truthfully i think all the other options were ways out.An escape from Pensacola,and all the Bull shit.But in reality i dont think it would've made me any happier to pick up and leave.I've done more for myself,and learned more about me then i ever thought i would.I've grown so much.i'm more independent,happier,more appreciative and humble,more caring and thoughtful.I think its done me some good to stay in this small town.
I read some of my old entires from over the years an realized how shitty my life was back then. All that Crap i endured.I was such a sad girl!I wanted to cry reading about how depressed i was and how i use to have suicidal thoughts.I coudlnt even believe that was me! i guess when i decided to forget and move on , i really did erase all of those memories from my mind completely!I dont know how i made it through,but looking back,i think i was stronger then i thought.I think i underestimated how much in me i really have!
I dunno, i guess i'm just happy! No...ECSTATIC... and overjoyed that i'm 19,i'm alive,i truly love someone with all my heart!,i'm confident,i'm intelligent,i'm strong,i'm scarred but i'm healed now,i'm independent,i'm resolved,my glass is half full and i'm in love with life and the idea that my future could bring so much more!!
i have something to offer,to bring to the table!my abuela always said that each half(of a whole..a husband,a relationship..whatever pair) should bring something.and i think i do!i have experiences and lessons!I've watched and learned and here i am, ready for anything an everything.Taking life one step at a time,Careful and Cautious,but free and determined!