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Everything is back to normal again now that Christmas and everything has gone.
To be totally honest and brutal, Christmas sucked. It just didn't feel like Christmas at all, Perhaps it's because I’m older now and have lost all belief and such, but, then again I don't think that is the reason. Christmas is not what it used to be, it’s all about the presents and every year Christmas seems to be getting bigger and faster and no-one really cares why we have it or appreciates it as an easy way to show family you care. Christmas is always full of arguments and disputes and It's not supposed to be that way, It shows us as people how much we tolerate and dislike each other for the rest of the year.
I don't really want to talk about it anymore, It just makes me feel low.
So New Year! Wow, what an amazing night... I don't think I will ever be able to drink again! It was deffinatly a good night that's for sure, and I spent it with people I ACTUALLY give a damn about.
I have been thinking of New Years resolutions and have finally come up with a list of things I would like to change or improve in my life. I'm not going to stop drinking of smoking, because I like doing it and as much as I wish I didn't I want to keep that the way it is. Drinking and Smoking only harms myself, not others so I'm cool with it. Drinking also takes the edge away from my uptightness.
My resolutions are as follows...
-To become more Vegan than Vegetarian, mainly cutting out the milk... eck!
-To move out.
-To stick with the Job I have. I've changed jobs to much.
-To make more of an effort with people that want to hang out with me.
-To do what I want not what I think is best in relationships.
-To try and keep things at least semi tidy!
I know they don't really seem like much, but the little things, like making a little bit more of an effort with a person will make a big difference. I need to get over being anti-social and get out there and live my life. Life is amazing, despite everything I say, It's a gift and It's short and needs the most making of it.
Yes, I get depressed and such, but so does everyone. I just need to think that in the end nothing matters and therefore it's not worth being down about.
I'm sort of looking forward to this year. I know it's going to have a lot in store for me and could be a big year in shaping the next few years of my life.
Anyway....
Power to the Peaceful
PS. On a second note... I helped make a country and our president has acknowleged it!!!
To be totally honest and brutal, Christmas sucked. It just didn't feel like Christmas at all, Perhaps it's because I’m older now and have lost all belief and such, but, then again I don't think that is the reason. Christmas is not what it used to be, it’s all about the presents and every year Christmas seems to be getting bigger and faster and no-one really cares why we have it or appreciates it as an easy way to show family you care. Christmas is always full of arguments and disputes and It's not supposed to be that way, It shows us as people how much we tolerate and dislike each other for the rest of the year.
I don't really want to talk about it anymore, It just makes me feel low.
So New Year! Wow, what an amazing night... I don't think I will ever be able to drink again! It was deffinatly a good night that's for sure, and I spent it with people I ACTUALLY give a damn about.
I have been thinking of New Years resolutions and have finally come up with a list of things I would like to change or improve in my life. I'm not going to stop drinking of smoking, because I like doing it and as much as I wish I didn't I want to keep that the way it is. Drinking and Smoking only harms myself, not others so I'm cool with it. Drinking also takes the edge away from my uptightness.
My resolutions are as follows...
-To become more Vegan than Vegetarian, mainly cutting out the milk... eck!
-To move out.
-To stick with the Job I have. I've changed jobs to much.
-To make more of an effort with people that want to hang out with me.
-To do what I want not what I think is best in relationships.
-To try and keep things at least semi tidy!
I know they don't really seem like much, but the little things, like making a little bit more of an effort with a person will make a big difference. I need to get over being anti-social and get out there and live my life. Life is amazing, despite everything I say, It's a gift and It's short and needs the most making of it.
Yes, I get depressed and such, but so does everyone. I just need to think that in the end nothing matters and therefore it's not worth being down about.
I'm sort of looking forward to this year. I know it's going to have a lot in store for me and could be a big year in shaping the next few years of my life.
Anyway....
Power to the Peaceful
PS. On a second note... I helped make a country and our president has acknowleged it!!!