*we need help we need help we need help*

[withouttonight]

yea.......aaaaaa..............a.

so my life is falling apart again.

i need help. like really fucking bad.

ive been drinking for......2 months straight. i might not drink maybe like once or twice a week. but every single night i will polish off a half pint, a pint, and sometimes a quart or whiskey. the last few days ive cut it down to beers and whiskey.
and i need help. i can feel myself falling apart and it feels so awful.

helpless.

i need to go to some sort of doctor, rehab, detox. i cant do this on my own anymore. not when ive been drinking for so long. i know that alcohol withdrawals can be deadly. and therefore, i need help.

i remembered a few places i could call. i might just go to my PCP and get his advice, and or refferal for somewhere.

i could lose my job for this. if i go away to rehab or something.....

i guess thats what you have to do though in life....if you really want to get better....

and i want to get better.

i dotn want to hear the words, "you can never drink again"

i just want to hear that it will be ok. that i will be ok.

ive become exactly what i never thought i would.

and its sick.

right now im drinking beer. and i have a half pint of Jack tucked away in my draw....