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[withoutsweetnes]

so..this is just to vent a little..but something..I don't like to talk about...

So...I met this guy....and...I think it is someone that I actually would want to spend time with. And..that doesn't happen often at all...it is really hard for me to let someone "in" and get close to me...especially guys...it's the hardest thing for me to do...is to let someone care for me. I don't know why..I don't know what's stopping me..but I freak out with guys start getting feelings for me..I freak..and run..and become a horrible bitch. But, this guy...he is different. And..I really enjoy spending some time with him...he is truely beautiful..in every sense of the word..I am so thankful to of met him...and hopefully is someone that I will get to spend some time with..and develop a wonderful relationship with...friend or more..I don't care...just as long as he is around..I just wanted to write and share that I have met someone that makes me smile..more than I normally do. And..it's nice.

So, thanks.

I know you will never read that..and that is fucking awesome..but thanks.