death destruction and denial
so the volvo is finished its done...im absaloutly devestated my baby is gone but we did have a celebration that left my roomates getting points off lol its sooo gay i know.... last week was pretty hectic and crazy...i dont think ive ever gotten fucked up so much in 1 week...first off sat nite me and danielle rolled 4 the first time it was crazy!!! then we just got wasted or at least stoned all through thursday. wednesday nite we definitlyt celebrated the volvos death...thursday i was an idiot and di sum blow...then sat nite i made ridiculous drunken phone calls and almost got me and kier arrested. Im pretty pissed off witrh my self.....as for everything else im spent. me and ross are definitly broken up i still love him and hes proved his love indefintly this week .as for myself i dont know whats going on i miss or at least i thinlk i miss sooo many things from different people or i should say different boys which isn't helping me at all because my intentions are to be single finally and just have fun but my intentions are like seasons and always seem to change........ i love being in love but i hate the aftermath. i dont know what i want with anything right now i mean fuck im just burning a gingerbread man candle and watching him sink down in the middle. Thats how i feel m sinking down right through myself right in the middle. Im incapable of coming to a conclusion about n e thing in particular.....