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things have been how they were a couple years back.
1. i noticed the day where everything is brighter and more full of color in the morning. when the grass is wet and shines and the sun is there but its still chilly.
2. ive had a day where i had a hole in my shoe when there is rain
there have been split seconds where i get flashbacks of that same feeling.
sun light, wind, humidity, shade, and smell.
for half a second i remember other times and its good.
ive been really different ever since i came back from rehab.
those places changed me, made me feel crazy and i have not been myself since.
i wish i was how i was 2 years ago.
i was much calmer, i thought more.
maybe its just winter that im ready for now, maybe i am going back to normal and this winter will be great.
when its good and cold ive been going around in the black clothes, i have yet to get a long black pea coat but theres still time.
ive been preparing for this cold, so i can enjoy it and be warm.
and i hope it'll be ok
1. i noticed the day where everything is brighter and more full of color in the morning. when the grass is wet and shines and the sun is there but its still chilly.
2. ive had a day where i had a hole in my shoe when there is rain
there have been split seconds where i get flashbacks of that same feeling.
sun light, wind, humidity, shade, and smell.
for half a second i remember other times and its good.
ive been really different ever since i came back from rehab.
those places changed me, made me feel crazy and i have not been myself since.
i wish i was how i was 2 years ago.
i was much calmer, i thought more.
maybe its just winter that im ready for now, maybe i am going back to normal and this winter will be great.
when its good and cold ive been going around in the black clothes, i have yet to get a long black pea coat but theres still time.
ive been preparing for this cold, so i can enjoy it and be warm.
and i hope it'll be ok