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Lately I have been on this creative wave. I don't know whats hitting me, but I think my subconscious thinking is catching up with me. Since I left my house. I've been going through emotions.
I MISS AUDREY LYNN SO MUCH!
She inspires me, and helps me find a place where I am truly happy. She is the one face that I can say will never let me down. I've been let down to much.Even let down by myself. Just the memory of my baby sister. Makes me breakdown, and the fact that I let her down as a brother breaks my heart.
I can careless about Ashley breaking my heart anymore its like I am immune to it, but Audrey she never did anything wrong. I play with all seven of Beto's neices and nephews that range from age 5 to 10,and believe it or not they treat my like family they say, "I love you, Bobby." It makes me feel at home, but I know I am not.
To see how I can bright up the kids faces like this when they see me playing guitar or playing hide and go seek makes me remeber Audrey. I remeber one of the times I ran away. I finally decided to come home, and when I got home I just lost it. It was the first good cry that've had in years, and when Audrey saw me crying she comes up to me, and says with a desolate voice, "Bobby, its ok." She made me smile. She is one of the only people that have ever done that for me.
I can't type anymore.
I MISS AUDREY LYNN SO MUCH!
She inspires me, and helps me find a place where I am truly happy. She is the one face that I can say will never let me down. I've been let down to much.Even let down by myself. Just the memory of my baby sister. Makes me breakdown, and the fact that I let her down as a brother breaks my heart.
I can careless about Ashley breaking my heart anymore its like I am immune to it, but Audrey she never did anything wrong. I play with all seven of Beto's neices and nephews that range from age 5 to 10,and believe it or not they treat my like family they say, "I love you, Bobby." It makes me feel at home, but I know I am not.
To see how I can bright up the kids faces like this when they see me playing guitar or playing hide and go seek makes me remeber Audrey. I remeber one of the times I ran away. I finally decided to come home, and when I got home I just lost it. It was the first good cry that've had in years, and when Audrey saw me crying she comes up to me, and says with a desolate voice, "Bobby, its ok." She made me smile. She is one of the only people that have ever done that for me.
I can't type anymore.