Why do I even bother?
This morning's texts:
Ecamer: Maybe I shouldn't be asking this, but it's been bugging me. Are you planning on leaving when you find a job?
Me: That all depends
Ecamer: Ok. I just want to know where my focus should be. I love you and will take care of you as long as that's what you want.
Me: I love you too. I'm just having a really difficult time with your family. They are the ones who make me want to leave. They make me feel unwelcome and unimportant. It stresses me out and makes it hard for me to deal with everything. It's gotten to where every time I look across the street, I am reminded of how little they think of me. I can't escape it. I am very close to snapping.
Ecamer: There is something I have learned from living with you. You cannot control or change others, only yourself. You need to find peace within yourself.
Me: They are invading my life and taking my kid from me. There will be no peace.
Ecamer: *sigh*
Me: Dont worry. I dont expect you to understand.
Ecamer: Then go talk to them.
Me: Right. Cause that has worked so well in the past...
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Ecamer: Maybe I shouldn't be asking this, but it's been bugging me. Are you planning on leaving when you find a job?
Me: That all depends
Ecamer: Ok. I just want to know where my focus should be. I love you and will take care of you as long as that's what you want.
Me: I love you too. I'm just having a really difficult time with your family. They are the ones who make me want to leave. They make me feel unwelcome and unimportant. It stresses me out and makes it hard for me to deal with everything. It's gotten to where every time I look across the street, I am reminded of how little they think of me. I can't escape it. I am very close to snapping.
Ecamer: There is something I have learned from living with you. You cannot control or change others, only yourself. You need to find peace within yourself.
Me: They are invading my life and taking my kid from me. There will be no peace.
Ecamer: *sigh*
Me: Dont worry. I dont expect you to understand.
Ecamer: Then go talk to them.
Me: Right. Cause that has worked so well in the past...
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