...you have no power over me
Kindergoth's school pictures came. This is something I forgot to mention. Or did I mention it? I don't remember... It's a bit funny. She will pose and smile for me but in her school pics she is staring off into nothingness. And her class picture, all the teachers were smiling but all the kids just looked on vacantly.
Anyway...
My MIL was sorting them and asked me what size I wanted to send to my mother and I just lost it. She does this every once in awhile.. insists that I should send pictures or a holiday card of sorts. Asks if I have spoken to my mother or my sister... I managed to keep my composure long enough to tell her I wouldn't be sending them any but when she pressured me as to why and then told me how she can't understand why I'm being so 'obstinate', I snapped.
I don't see why I should have to feel obligated to send her pictures of a granddaughter who she doesn't even care to see. She never sends her a birthday card, never writes and asks about her. The only time she bothered writing to me what when that whole thing went down with my sister wanting to know my grandparents address. Yeah.. that made me an emotional wreck for weeks. And all the while, she pretended to be sad that this was the way things were. And after all that went down, she never spoke to me again other then to send me some stupid "meme/survey" thing in which one of the questions asked was "do you have any children?" and her answer was "sort of". -_- Gee, thanks mom. Nice to know you were lying to me. .....Again.
Anyway, I flipped out. Not in a major way, but I was curt enough to let my MIL know that from now on, my family was not a welcome topic of conversation with her and I was not going to be guilt-ed into being a 'good little girl' and pretending everything is fine with them. I have already tried that several times in my life and it has ended me up with nothing more then heartache.
I dont know.. I'm just tired of being hurt over this entire family issue when I least expect it. I know its an awful/horrible thing to say, but, sometimes I wish that they didn't even exist.
Anyway...
My MIL was sorting them and asked me what size I wanted to send to my mother and I just lost it. She does this every once in awhile.. insists that I should send pictures or a holiday card of sorts. Asks if I have spoken to my mother or my sister... I managed to keep my composure long enough to tell her I wouldn't be sending them any but when she pressured me as to why and then told me how she can't understand why I'm being so 'obstinate', I snapped.
I don't see why I should have to feel obligated to send her pictures of a granddaughter who she doesn't even care to see. She never sends her a birthday card, never writes and asks about her. The only time she bothered writing to me what when that whole thing went down with my sister wanting to know my grandparents address. Yeah.. that made me an emotional wreck for weeks. And all the while, she pretended to be sad that this was the way things were. And after all that went down, she never spoke to me again other then to send me some stupid "meme/survey" thing in which one of the questions asked was "do you have any children?" and her answer was "sort of". -_- Gee, thanks mom. Nice to know you were lying to me. .....Again.
Anyway, I flipped out. Not in a major way, but I was curt enough to let my MIL know that from now on, my family was not a welcome topic of conversation with her and I was not going to be guilt-ed into being a 'good little girl' and pretending everything is fine with them. I have already tried that several times in my life and it has ended me up with nothing more then heartache.
I dont know.. I'm just tired of being hurt over this entire family issue when I least expect it. I know its an awful/horrible thing to say, but, sometimes I wish that they didn't even exist.