i'm semi-embarrassed to admit...
that i've finally given in to the peer pressure and am reading "twilight"....and i'm kind of loving it!! bevvy and joyce are super into the series and have been begging me to read it. i tried, but the problem is that i had watched the movie already and just couldn't get into reading the book, but after seeing the preview for new moon, i decided i should get on the ball and start reading. i've been losing sleep reading in bed. i can't start studying for the series 66 until i finish at least twilight, dammit!
i haven't been going out too much recently. this may sound silly, but i read in my susan miller horoscope that september is supposed to be a financially difficult month for me, so i've kind of been trying to stop spending as much. this is helped by the fact that all my friends here in NYC appear to be broke as well and have very strict budgets on themselves. plus, i've got to pay off the debt i incurred on my europe trip and it ain't happening quickly, that's for sure. man, i really really hate debt. it haunts my dreams sometimes.
in our quest to be budget concious, chrissi and i went to the bronx zoo on sunday for free corporate day. it was actually quite a beautiful day weather wise, and quite possibly one of the last nice days we will be having for the remainder of the year. i am really not looking forward to fall/winter/cold weather/chapped skin/snow/sleet/heavy coats/scarves/5 layers of clothing/not wanting to leave my apartment. SIGH. anyways, the bronx zoo was fun and not quite as big as the map indicated. we were finished viewing the entire park in about 2 hours. the tiger exhibit was closed due to a storm last month that destroyed the area. i even saw a big fallen tree with it's roots all waving in the air. rushed home to try and do laundry, grabbed my big sack and headed for the basement, whereupon the freaking change machine was out of order. crap!
this is a good segue into my next point. i can't wait for the day that i have a washer and dryer inside my apartment/home. i can't wait for the day that i have a walk in closet or even a normal sized closet, where i don't have to jam everything in and things are constantly wrinkled. there's a reason for this rant. i may possibly be coming back to california when my lease ends at the end of january. i'm having an internal dilemma about this. am i ready to leave NYC? no, i don't think so. am i sick of the cold weather? an emphatic yes. am i sick of my job and some of the people i work with? yes. do i really want to move back to cali, back to my old life, the same old group of friends, doing the same thing i did when i left 2 1/2 years ago? i don't know where else to go. it's funny how important good weather is to people who are spoiled by it growing up. if the weather in manhattan were similar to socal's i wouldn't think twice about staying here. yet, the thought of another long, dreary, cold winter depresses me to no end. also, if i move back to cali, will i have a job? can i transfer my job over? do i really want to stay in finance? where will i live? i would need to buy a car. how do i incorporate my life back into living in california again? would i hate it and think everything's boring? would i regret it if i left NYC? what if i move to london?? always wanted to live there. these are some of the thoughts that have been plaguing me over and over and the problem is that there is no answer. i keep asking myself these very important questions and i can't abide by any resolutions. i'm going crazy....literally crazy.
by the time my lease ends, i will have lived in NYC for close to 3 years. maybe it is time for a change.
i haven't been going out too much recently. this may sound silly, but i read in my susan miller horoscope that september is supposed to be a financially difficult month for me, so i've kind of been trying to stop spending as much. this is helped by the fact that all my friends here in NYC appear to be broke as well and have very strict budgets on themselves. plus, i've got to pay off the debt i incurred on my europe trip and it ain't happening quickly, that's for sure. man, i really really hate debt. it haunts my dreams sometimes.
in our quest to be budget concious, chrissi and i went to the bronx zoo on sunday for free corporate day. it was actually quite a beautiful day weather wise, and quite possibly one of the last nice days we will be having for the remainder of the year. i am really not looking forward to fall/winter/cold weather/chapped skin/snow/sleet/heavy coats/scarves/5 layers of clothing/not wanting to leave my apartment. SIGH. anyways, the bronx zoo was fun and not quite as big as the map indicated. we were finished viewing the entire park in about 2 hours. the tiger exhibit was closed due to a storm last month that destroyed the area. i even saw a big fallen tree with it's roots all waving in the air. rushed home to try and do laundry, grabbed my big sack and headed for the basement, whereupon the freaking change machine was out of order. crap!
this is a good segue into my next point. i can't wait for the day that i have a washer and dryer inside my apartment/home. i can't wait for the day that i have a walk in closet or even a normal sized closet, where i don't have to jam everything in and things are constantly wrinkled. there's a reason for this rant. i may possibly be coming back to california when my lease ends at the end of january. i'm having an internal dilemma about this. am i ready to leave NYC? no, i don't think so. am i sick of the cold weather? an emphatic yes. am i sick of my job and some of the people i work with? yes. do i really want to move back to cali, back to my old life, the same old group of friends, doing the same thing i did when i left 2 1/2 years ago? i don't know where else to go. it's funny how important good weather is to people who are spoiled by it growing up. if the weather in manhattan were similar to socal's i wouldn't think twice about staying here. yet, the thought of another long, dreary, cold winter depresses me to no end. also, if i move back to cali, will i have a job? can i transfer my job over? do i really want to stay in finance? where will i live? i would need to buy a car. how do i incorporate my life back into living in california again? would i hate it and think everything's boring? would i regret it if i left NYC? what if i move to london?? always wanted to live there. these are some of the thoughts that have been plaguing me over and over and the problem is that there is no answer. i keep asking myself these very important questions and i can't abide by any resolutions. i'm going crazy....literally crazy.
by the time my lease ends, i will have lived in NYC for close to 3 years. maybe it is time for a change.