Hypnosis style, bitch! What do you know about that?
Went out with my brother over the weekend. Got good and sauced. Theres this house in austing, its like a goddamned ewok village. Nothing but outside staircases four stories tall... rooms ontop of rooms without meaning, just there and occupied. SOmething like 120 people live there. Anyway.
Drank in the dorm on thursday, got more planned for this thursday. College is starting to be fun. I've decided that there are two ways you can fuck up in school, you can flunk out, and you can make straight As.
I was on the straight A path, but now Im not. I plan on doin a little thinking, a little drinking... and of course, there arent enough cigarettes in the world to satisfy my needs.
But otherwise nothing has really changed. I had reformat my computer twice this week, and that was gay. I flirted with the tech a good deal which is always cool.
Im still scared of girls and self councious, but Im working on it. Yes, just like jesus is coming.
I don't know who I'm voting for. The cynic wants bush, the dreamer wants kerry. To outsiders its not the same. I understand where both of these men are coming from, and I think ther are equally valid. Bush is a little misguided and stupid, but kerry is a stupid in his own ways. Logically, I think bush should do it. I think america needs to be safe, and I think Iraq is a necessary evil. Im sorry people are dying, but theres a chance I'll be one of them.
Kerry, on the other hand, would mark the restoration of the innocence within me, back before I hated the world and most of the people. I want that to happen. I want to be a good person again in the sense that the rest of the people are good, I want to value such things as being nice, and carity, and universal love. But I don't see the point to it anymore.
Fuckin Ayn Rand ruined me with her cold logic. But its what I''ve always beleived. Never change yourself for a girl. I've been saying that shit for years. Because of rand its merely become dont change yourself period. Do what you want to do, and you will be valued by the ones that share your values. Your friends will be fewer, but more true. Your love life will be harder, but pending you find it, it will be perfect.
Is human perfection possible? If you challenge yourself and win every time, is that perfection, or have you not been challenging youself hard enough? I think that humanity in essence is imperfection. The facts are that we have limitations and that if you try to exceed them you will die. We can reach towards perfection, and we can be good and near perfection, but like the exponential model, we will never be able to reach that zenith no matter how close we get.
Socially, though, Im getting better. My antisocial tendencies are still prevalent, but Im beating them back. Im making friends etc, so its just a matter of time before my true colors come out. I just hope I havent lead people on about my true nature.
Well, ummm, lay me down with some of that goood old white power for me. I'll see you later.
Morris
Drank in the dorm on thursday, got more planned for this thursday. College is starting to be fun. I've decided that there are two ways you can fuck up in school, you can flunk out, and you can make straight As.
I was on the straight A path, but now Im not. I plan on doin a little thinking, a little drinking... and of course, there arent enough cigarettes in the world to satisfy my needs.
But otherwise nothing has really changed. I had reformat my computer twice this week, and that was gay. I flirted with the tech a good deal which is always cool.
Im still scared of girls and self councious, but Im working on it. Yes, just like jesus is coming.
I don't know who I'm voting for. The cynic wants bush, the dreamer wants kerry. To outsiders its not the same. I understand where both of these men are coming from, and I think ther are equally valid. Bush is a little misguided and stupid, but kerry is a stupid in his own ways. Logically, I think bush should do it. I think america needs to be safe, and I think Iraq is a necessary evil. Im sorry people are dying, but theres a chance I'll be one of them.
Kerry, on the other hand, would mark the restoration of the innocence within me, back before I hated the world and most of the people. I want that to happen. I want to be a good person again in the sense that the rest of the people are good, I want to value such things as being nice, and carity, and universal love. But I don't see the point to it anymore.
Fuckin Ayn Rand ruined me with her cold logic. But its what I''ve always beleived. Never change yourself for a girl. I've been saying that shit for years. Because of rand its merely become dont change yourself period. Do what you want to do, and you will be valued by the ones that share your values. Your friends will be fewer, but more true. Your love life will be harder, but pending you find it, it will be perfect.
Is human perfection possible? If you challenge yourself and win every time, is that perfection, or have you not been challenging youself hard enough? I think that humanity in essence is imperfection. The facts are that we have limitations and that if you try to exceed them you will die. We can reach towards perfection, and we can be good and near perfection, but like the exponential model, we will never be able to reach that zenith no matter how close we get.
Socially, though, Im getting better. My antisocial tendencies are still prevalent, but Im beating them back. Im making friends etc, so its just a matter of time before my true colors come out. I just hope I havent lead people on about my true nature.
Well, ummm, lay me down with some of that goood old white power for me. I'll see you later.
Morris