HAHAHA
So i finally opened up and alowed myself to fall for this girl. Nono, I know what alot of you are saying: "You like so many girls!" but no thats not true. Yes I find them interesting and am interested in dating them but never once do I believe I have a shot; thus never once did I believe that it might have gone somewhere. But with this last girl I kinda started out with the same persona but kinda fell for her. I got over my stupid commitment issues and thought it might actually go somewhere. Infact it kinda looked like it was going to, enough that other people noticed and practically considered us BF nad GF. But like all the others shot me down tonight. Except unlike before, this one really hurts. And it made it even worse that she seemed unphazed by it and kept talking to me like she said nothing... ehhhhh! I give up, i finally after 3 years found a girl worth dating and it ends this way. At this rate it will be a decade before i get a gf, and maybe another century before i get married. Looks like I may just end up extrodinarely alone for the rest of my life. I'll be the guy that everyone else runs to when I have problems. The one that everyone says they love. But the one home alone on christmas eve night with no oe to love him and to confide in. Its going to be a long painful journey ahead.