I said are you gonna be my girl?
This weekend was alright. Friday went okay.. went to the movies with Sven.. everything was seeming like it was going to be alright. Saturday Sven and I kinda hung out at his place till jackie got off, then Jackie and I went out. Got back Sat night and we decided we were going to get rid of Sven so that Nichole could come over and we could drink. So I told Sven he could use my car to go up to the club... even goave him some money to get in. He seemed cool with it.. everything was good. So nichole came over and we all got blasted. Fun shit. Jackie went to bed.. and around 2 or so Billy came home. Still no Sven. 4am .. no Sven... 5 am.. no Sven.. 7 rolls around and I went in a woke Billy and Jackie up. I was pretty pissed cuz I knew he had gone out to some party or something. 8 am comes and I finally call him and hes on his way home. He pulls up and I ask him where he was.. yea he was talking to Tim all night. So somehow he lost track of 4 hours talking to Tim. Bull Shit!
I honestly dont care where he was or what he was doing.. I care that I let him use my car... and he decides to be gone for 10 hours and not bother to tell me. How fucked up is that?
So today... I hung out with Billy. Went to the mall.. drove around.. ate dinner. Just got back from playing pool with him and Jackie.
This shit is bothering me.
They say the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else. I need to find that someone else.
Class tomorrow.
I have been thinking about some of my past relationships. I can honestly say that there is only one guy that I miss. I miss him because we were good for each other. Thats why I kept going back to him. Every time it didnt work I was dissapointed. I think that the only problem that we really had was our outlook on life. It doesnt sound like such a big problem.. but it was. I miss how I could be myself around him.. and how he made me feel WANTED. That was so nice. So much has changed.. and part of me still wonders if It would work if we tried it again. I dont think I will ever get that chance. I know that he still cares about me and I wonder if he thinks about that too. I want the chance to sit and just talk to him again. Part of me knows that I shouldnt even hope.. shouldnt even think about it. Part of me wants to be selfish. Maybe it was the innocence of the relationship that I miss..
Knowing that you still believe in me.. and being able to give me positive advice when I needed it. I remember the duck.... wish we could have it.
Why cant we leave the problems of past relationships .. in the past? Why to we bring the issues that we had with other people into other relationships, expecting things to be the same? Like "I was hurt really bad.. Im not ready to be in a relationship again" Granted.. I have said that.. but it was only an excuse. I wasnt ready mentally or emotionally to be involved with someone. Not because I was worried of getting hurt again.
My theory: Men are not dogs. Women are dogs. If you play with us.. give us attention.. make us feel wanted.. we will be your most loyal and best friend. Hurt us once.. and we forgive you... hurt us again and we forget about you. Men on the other hand are like cats. They come around when they want something. They are the moodiest creatures ever! If they want attention.. they are all up on you. When we want attention.. we can fuck off and die. Do something to piss them off.. we wont see them for a week.
I honestly dont care where he was or what he was doing.. I care that I let him use my car... and he decides to be gone for 10 hours and not bother to tell me. How fucked up is that?
So today... I hung out with Billy. Went to the mall.. drove around.. ate dinner. Just got back from playing pool with him and Jackie.
This shit is bothering me.
They say the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else. I need to find that someone else.
Class tomorrow.
I have been thinking about some of my past relationships. I can honestly say that there is only one guy that I miss. I miss him because we were good for each other. Thats why I kept going back to him. Every time it didnt work I was dissapointed. I think that the only problem that we really had was our outlook on life. It doesnt sound like such a big problem.. but it was. I miss how I could be myself around him.. and how he made me feel WANTED. That was so nice. So much has changed.. and part of me still wonders if It would work if we tried it again. I dont think I will ever get that chance. I know that he still cares about me and I wonder if he thinks about that too. I want the chance to sit and just talk to him again. Part of me knows that I shouldnt even hope.. shouldnt even think about it. Part of me wants to be selfish. Maybe it was the innocence of the relationship that I miss..
Knowing that you still believe in me.. and being able to give me positive advice when I needed it. I remember the duck.... wish we could have it.
Why cant we leave the problems of past relationships .. in the past? Why to we bring the issues that we had with other people into other relationships, expecting things to be the same? Like "I was hurt really bad.. Im not ready to be in a relationship again" Granted.. I have said that.. but it was only an excuse. I wasnt ready mentally or emotionally to be involved with someone. Not because I was worried of getting hurt again.
My theory: Men are not dogs. Women are dogs. If you play with us.. give us attention.. make us feel wanted.. we will be your most loyal and best friend. Hurt us once.. and we forgive you... hurt us again and we forget about you. Men on the other hand are like cats. They come around when they want something. They are the moodiest creatures ever! If they want attention.. they are all up on you. When we want attention.. we can fuck off and die. Do something to piss them off.. we wont see them for a week.