So, here we go with an analysis of current events....

I've been feeling really odd lately. Apathetic of sorts, but not really. This is going to sounds crazy, but I think the lack of stress in my life is freaking me out. I usually worry constantly about 9 things at once, all day. Now, I have school, and work, and thats really it. And, oddly, I'm 100 ( Read more... )

So, I was talking to Jonah one night after work....I guess 2 months ago, or maybe more. That was back when I was pretty much in hate with my job and was taking nearly every opportunity possible to bitch about work. I recall him saying something about how he decided one day to be happy, and to be content with where he was and what he had. I thought ( Read more... )

I can't remember the last time I came home from work, exhausted, and smelling of canes, wanting to head immediately for my bed. It's....fulfilling.

The cold weather has been doing strange things to me. My mind's working differently. It's hard to describe. I feel somewhat like my old self. Only, older, and maybe a little wiser. But that spark....... ( Read more... )

“To know who we are and what ought to do should be everybody’s first duty, but how many really seek the truth? How many are willing without any casuistry* to accept the responsibility of a choice?”
Walter Bonatti

Knowing the self is the foundation of clear, right action. Inaccurate self-knowledge leads to confusion about behavior. Fear often ( Read more... )

Summer is carrying on, with little pomp and even less circumstance.

I carve out a dull day by deciding to carry myself to the rec center or not. I enjoy going, i just don't enjoy waking up late and then not wanting to go. I make every monday and tuesday, but the rest of the week has been skipped or modified lately. Either way, I've managed to get ( Read more... )

I took my last final today, around noon....and thats the last I intend to think of school till august.
This summer is to be about lounging, having fun, drinking to delirium and getting in shape, mentally, emotionally and physically.

I've been really lost for a while, and i intend to either find or reinvent myself over the next three months. Now, ( Read more... )

I've decided my 21st birthday is probably going to suck. In exactly 2 weeks, I reach the blessed age of legalized drinking. And, as my luck would have it, its on a thursday. This means I'm stuck with class the next day. And it probably means I have to work that night. So yeah, Fuck.

I've decided how i'm going to die. Its going to be a long slow ( Read more... )