ahh confusion
oh my god im so confused. i thought this is what i wanted but this isnt HOW i wanted it. everything is so complicated and i just wished that everything would solve itself. i do like tyson but i dont know if i LIKE him. i wish i wasnt drunk when i said i would date him, i wish i could have thought things out more, figured out what the pros and cons were. him being my friends brother doesnt make things any better either! i cant even talk to her about it or else she be grossed out or tell him what im thinking. i really need michelles advice, im listening to everyone else but i just have no idea what to do!! this is crazy! i had an awesome night with him yesterday but that made things more complicated i dont want him to think im leading him on but i dont want to hurt him. im so confused i wish i knew what to do. i dont know if hes gonna be a guy im really gonna like or just a friend, hes cute but im not REALLY physically attracted to him which i never thought would be a huge thing for me but apparently im shallow! fuck my life i want to cry right now.