a pleasant breeze.
So today I found myself in some situations that made me feel particularly good.
I went to sleep at 4:30 this morning after reading and journaling for a few hours. Two of my aunts (from my mothers side) were sleeping over with my mother since one of them was leaving to go back home to NYC. I slept on the couch only to be awaken twice before 8am because the sisters decided to have an outrageoulsy loud conversation that just couldn't wait...but I found that I couldn't blame for anything, so I proceeded to my mother's room and attempted to sleep for the rest of the morning (dad had already left for work), only to find that I couldn't go to sleep for almost an hour...but I ended up finding myself waking up at 1:00 in the afternoon (miraculously).
Then I sang in the midst of a really warm shower that made me most happy. And I proceeded to hang out with my mother and my aunt from NYC, while I managed to take a look at one of the two new plays that I recently ordered off amazon.com...I love it thus far- it intrigues me and, at the same time, baffles me...me likey.
Then my aunt from NYC ended up ready to depart for Columbia (by way of my Uncle James, her brother), just as my little cousin was being dropped off at our house after her first day back at school. My mom looked over at me and said, "Do you mind looking after your cousin so I can ride with them?" I shrugged my shoulders, "Sure". "Thank you so much...I love you..." and she kissed me on the cheek. That made me smile...she wanted to ride with her little sis and big brother...how cute. Love you too, mommy.
So I babysat my favorite little cousin and found it quite fun. However, once I realized I was in the house alone, I left her watching TV for a minute to proceed downstairs and sing one of my favorite (and quite "belt-y") musical theatre pieces. I think I almost cried because it was such a great feeling. Then she ended up finding me and I performed it again for her...she sometimes inspires me.
Then I went to Borders to help one of my friends find some pieces for his Tisch and U of Chicago auditions that are coming up. It was, again, nice to have some good, old fun with him without feeling those old and once-so-strong feelings I used to have for him. We're good friends. And I can actually accept that. FINALLY. Thank God.
And now I here in the room I have spent so much time in over break, anticipating next semester as it lurks in the distance. I am quite excited about many things, however (most of which I have previously mentioned)...I just want to get that French class I have been waiting for...
Oh, and today I was walking outside in pitch black darkness as the cold air pounded against my skin and I was watching the stars, listening to the wind blow and watching tree branches flutter in space....then I almost started crying. I don't really know what that meant...
Life is beautiful.
I really like life right now.
I went to sleep at 4:30 this morning after reading and journaling for a few hours. Two of my aunts (from my mothers side) were sleeping over with my mother since one of them was leaving to go back home to NYC. I slept on the couch only to be awaken twice before 8am because the sisters decided to have an outrageoulsy loud conversation that just couldn't wait...but I found that I couldn't blame for anything, so I proceeded to my mother's room and attempted to sleep for the rest of the morning (dad had already left for work), only to find that I couldn't go to sleep for almost an hour...but I ended up finding myself waking up at 1:00 in the afternoon (miraculously).
Then I sang in the midst of a really warm shower that made me most happy. And I proceeded to hang out with my mother and my aunt from NYC, while I managed to take a look at one of the two new plays that I recently ordered off amazon.com...I love it thus far- it intrigues me and, at the same time, baffles me...me likey.
Then my aunt from NYC ended up ready to depart for Columbia (by way of my Uncle James, her brother), just as my little cousin was being dropped off at our house after her first day back at school. My mom looked over at me and said, "Do you mind looking after your cousin so I can ride with them?" I shrugged my shoulders, "Sure". "Thank you so much...I love you..." and she kissed me on the cheek. That made me smile...she wanted to ride with her little sis and big brother...how cute. Love you too, mommy.
So I babysat my favorite little cousin and found it quite fun. However, once I realized I was in the house alone, I left her watching TV for a minute to proceed downstairs and sing one of my favorite (and quite "belt-y") musical theatre pieces. I think I almost cried because it was such a great feeling. Then she ended up finding me and I performed it again for her...she sometimes inspires me.
Then I went to Borders to help one of my friends find some pieces for his Tisch and U of Chicago auditions that are coming up. It was, again, nice to have some good, old fun with him without feeling those old and once-so-strong feelings I used to have for him. We're good friends. And I can actually accept that. FINALLY. Thank God.
And now I here in the room I have spent so much time in over break, anticipating next semester as it lurks in the distance. I am quite excited about many things, however (most of which I have previously mentioned)...I just want to get that French class I have been waiting for...
Oh, and today I was walking outside in pitch black darkness as the cold air pounded against my skin and I was watching the stars, listening to the wind blow and watching tree branches flutter in space....then I almost started crying. I don't really know what that meant...
Life is beautiful.
I really like life right now.