Choices
Several months ago, I quit Borders. I was happy, relieved, and was finally getting enough sleep. When the winter months came, I became concerned about money and extra expenses. So I went back to borders for a seasonal position. I was supposed to have only worked through January and then I would leave, go back to be a contingent employee. However, I ended up staying another month, then another, then another. It is almost the end of March and I am still there.
The problem is that I have filled up my plate again. Borders is cutting my time. Mondays I have dance practice, so there is little time to do school, hair, and even shopping. I work Tuesdays. Wednesday is Bible Study, and once again, takes away from my time. Then I work Thursday through Saturday literally from 7am to 11:30pm. Once again, no time. I end up staying up late to do school and other things. Come Saturday morning I am so tied that I sleep until I have to get up and work again. Sunday is church and the after noon is always hard because I'm still tired. Then I have to get up on Monday and start the whole thing over again.
The money I earned has helped me a lot with saving up. But it's cutting too much into my time, and it's effecting my work... I was called into my boss's office this morning. He knows how much I work, and he knows that I have been late almost every morning. God bless Nicole for always covering for me, but I feel bad that she has to do it. I never wanted it to be like that. If I didn't have to stay up so late at night, I'd be able to get up in the mornings.
My boss, hasn't been documenting my latnesses, and I feel blessed for that. My tardiness would be a grounds for removal. He suggested that I manage my time better and see what has to go so i can work properly. He said something to me that hit home. I don't see my job a a lot of work. Sure it's easy, but it still consumes a lot of time and effort, non the less. I leave at 3:30 everyday to do extended care and that too cuts into my time.
So I think that the time has come to readjust my schedule. To change my life again so that I can work to the best of my abilities. SO I can enjoy life once more and stop being so tired that I am hindering myself. After talking with my boss, I believe that I am doing more harm than good and life is passing me by so quickly. I won't lie, the extra money has been fantastic. I love the extra $300 a month. But at what price though. I'm overflowing my plate. A plate that I didn't even know the size of. My boss suggested that I let Borders go.
Loyalty and my joy for the job has kept me there. I went back because I was asked and even though I was slightly reluctant, I went back. At first it wasn't so bad. But as the months moved on, I found myself growing more and more tired and pressed for time. Staying up late to do homework, coming in late to work, my room is always messy, I find it hard to find time to run errands, I need clothes, shoes, food, and other supplies that I can't find time to get. I can't put in extra hours at work to finish my tasks, and I spend half the time in the morning fighting to stay awake.
Yes. It is time to let Borders go. I need to close that chapter in my life and keep it closed. I feel a little embarrassed when I realized that I am the only one still there. I'm the only one left. That past employees come in and still see me there, doing the same thing. It like I opened a door of opportunity and I set one foot inside, and the other foot is stuck on a bush outside.
I have also realized that once I quit, I can't go back. So as of Saturday, I have to put in my two week's notice and not look back. I have been forever loyal, but it's time to move on. I feel sad already, but this cannot continue. It just can't.
The problem is that I have filled up my plate again. Borders is cutting my time. Mondays I have dance practice, so there is little time to do school, hair, and even shopping. I work Tuesdays. Wednesday is Bible Study, and once again, takes away from my time. Then I work Thursday through Saturday literally from 7am to 11:30pm. Once again, no time. I end up staying up late to do school and other things. Come Saturday morning I am so tied that I sleep until I have to get up and work again. Sunday is church and the after noon is always hard because I'm still tired. Then I have to get up on Monday and start the whole thing over again.
The money I earned has helped me a lot with saving up. But it's cutting too much into my time, and it's effecting my work... I was called into my boss's office this morning. He knows how much I work, and he knows that I have been late almost every morning. God bless Nicole for always covering for me, but I feel bad that she has to do it. I never wanted it to be like that. If I didn't have to stay up so late at night, I'd be able to get up in the mornings.
My boss, hasn't been documenting my latnesses, and I feel blessed for that. My tardiness would be a grounds for removal. He suggested that I manage my time better and see what has to go so i can work properly. He said something to me that hit home. I don't see my job a a lot of work. Sure it's easy, but it still consumes a lot of time and effort, non the less. I leave at 3:30 everyday to do extended care and that too cuts into my time.
So I think that the time has come to readjust my schedule. To change my life again so that I can work to the best of my abilities. SO I can enjoy life once more and stop being so tired that I am hindering myself. After talking with my boss, I believe that I am doing more harm than good and life is passing me by so quickly. I won't lie, the extra money has been fantastic. I love the extra $300 a month. But at what price though. I'm overflowing my plate. A plate that I didn't even know the size of. My boss suggested that I let Borders go.
Loyalty and my joy for the job has kept me there. I went back because I was asked and even though I was slightly reluctant, I went back. At first it wasn't so bad. But as the months moved on, I found myself growing more and more tired and pressed for time. Staying up late to do homework, coming in late to work, my room is always messy, I find it hard to find time to run errands, I need clothes, shoes, food, and other supplies that I can't find time to get. I can't put in extra hours at work to finish my tasks, and I spend half the time in the morning fighting to stay awake.
Yes. It is time to let Borders go. I need to close that chapter in my life and keep it closed. I feel a little embarrassed when I realized that I am the only one still there. I'm the only one left. That past employees come in and still see me there, doing the same thing. It like I opened a door of opportunity and I set one foot inside, and the other foot is stuck on a bush outside.
I have also realized that once I quit, I can't go back. So as of Saturday, I have to put in my two week's notice and not look back. I have been forever loyal, but it's time to move on. I feel sad already, but this cannot continue. It just can't.