my so called life
Man I used to love that show.
I have been neglecting my livejournal for sometime now. Its all your fault myspace. But again I come back to my old lj friend because all the people i know in real life dont come here and it makes me feel free.
Lots of things has happend since my last post. I am going to start real university in the fall. I'm going to southern il university. Partay! lol
I am majoring in painting I'm going to see about making my minor photograpy because i love both of them. At the student art show i won first prize for photograpy. I won 1st and 2nd in printmaking.
I am going to live on campus this fall so i get to move to carbondale which will be nice because its like a bustling little city in the middle of all these corn fields and red neck towns. I am living on the 17th floor of this dorm that is for ppl over 21 or something like that. I have a super single room. I hope the super means bigger. I still have to check on that. I hope it has a cool view and an elevator because i'm sure i'll be paying out the ass for it. I need to check on all that stuff.
I have been slacking on things this week because i am staying at my moms and i tend to step out of the real world and what i need to be doing when i am here. Like seeing about getting a job and keeping up on stuff and working on paintings. I need to go back to my life. i probably will do that tomorrow i guess.
I think my summer classes start on monday. The stupied website doesn't even have the first day of classes. It has when to get text books and last day to drop a summer class but not when classes start. A lot of the people that work for rend lake are some cracker jack motherfuckers.
As for my personal life its pretty non-existant like usual. I fell in love with a boy though. We were great friends and then I fell in love with him and then he told me he was gay. So goes the story of my life.
I'm okay with it though cant change what God made.We are better friends now and he is happy because he is telling people and its out in the open.
Plus there are a lot of single guys a siu hopefully i'll like one of them and that the feeling is mutual.
I hate it that i can control who i fall in love with. If i could help it I would probably fall in love with no one because it always messes with my head and i dont constright on what I should be. i.e. school and the like
that is one of the things I wish for in life the other is to spell and know how to do grammer. But somethings will never happen.
I am scared about going so siu because its a really school unlike the one i have been going to for the last 2 years. I am worried that what i do wont hold up and they will kick me out of the program. i guess i always worry about that but its becoming more and more real.
My brother did alright in the program though so i guess i will too. I just dont have the confidence like he does because everyone has been telling him for years that his art work is good and I always kept mine to myself because i never think it is good enough. I do good in my classes and my teachers tell me is good so i just need to believe them I guess. I'm just worried because the profs at siu wont baby me like the ones at rlc have. I need to toughin up and be ready for it. Maybe I should wear a hard hat. lol
I will have to go in there like i did when i take melissa's classes with my invible armor on ready to fight her stupid ideas. I hope the teachers arn't that bad though. lol
well i must go to bed i have to do stuff tomorrow.
I have been neglecting my livejournal for sometime now. Its all your fault myspace. But again I come back to my old lj friend because all the people i know in real life dont come here and it makes me feel free.
Lots of things has happend since my last post. I am going to start real university in the fall. I'm going to southern il university. Partay! lol
I am majoring in painting I'm going to see about making my minor photograpy because i love both of them. At the student art show i won first prize for photograpy. I won 1st and 2nd in printmaking.
I am going to live on campus this fall so i get to move to carbondale which will be nice because its like a bustling little city in the middle of all these corn fields and red neck towns. I am living on the 17th floor of this dorm that is for ppl over 21 or something like that. I have a super single room. I hope the super means bigger. I still have to check on that. I hope it has a cool view and an elevator because i'm sure i'll be paying out the ass for it. I need to check on all that stuff.
I have been slacking on things this week because i am staying at my moms and i tend to step out of the real world and what i need to be doing when i am here. Like seeing about getting a job and keeping up on stuff and working on paintings. I need to go back to my life. i probably will do that tomorrow i guess.
I think my summer classes start on monday. The stupied website doesn't even have the first day of classes. It has when to get text books and last day to drop a summer class but not when classes start. A lot of the people that work for rend lake are some cracker jack motherfuckers.
As for my personal life its pretty non-existant like usual. I fell in love with a boy though. We were great friends and then I fell in love with him and then he told me he was gay. So goes the story of my life.
I'm okay with it though cant change what God made.We are better friends now and he is happy because he is telling people and its out in the open.
Plus there are a lot of single guys a siu hopefully i'll like one of them and that the feeling is mutual.
I hate it that i can control who i fall in love with. If i could help it I would probably fall in love with no one because it always messes with my head and i dont constright on what I should be. i.e. school and the like
that is one of the things I wish for in life the other is to spell and know how to do grammer. But somethings will never happen.
I am scared about going so siu because its a really school unlike the one i have been going to for the last 2 years. I am worried that what i do wont hold up and they will kick me out of the program. i guess i always worry about that but its becoming more and more real.
My brother did alright in the program though so i guess i will too. I just dont have the confidence like he does because everyone has been telling him for years that his art work is good and I always kept mine to myself because i never think it is good enough. I do good in my classes and my teachers tell me is good so i just need to believe them I guess. I'm just worried because the profs at siu wont baby me like the ones at rlc have. I need to toughin up and be ready for it. Maybe I should wear a hard hat. lol
I will have to go in there like i did when i take melissa's classes with my invible armor on ready to fight her stupid ideas. I hope the teachers arn't that bad though. lol
well i must go to bed i have to do stuff tomorrow.