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Confrontation is difficult for me. I don't like starting it, nor do I like being put in the middle of it. Having people come to me, looking to start an argument. That would be difficult to believe if you were certain people in my life. It seems that even if things are incredibly good somethings got to be brought up to piss me or the other party involved off. And I hate that. It drives me mad and I just wish that it wasn't necessary. But sometimes it is. Maybe it's not always the most opportune time, or something everyone wants to talk about, but it's unavoidable.
And then things aren't alright, and people get upset. Probably me more than others because I find myself getting far too emotional over stupid silly things, and it's hard. But whatever. It's all shit when you think about it. There's far worse things in life than the little annoyances, or the little problems we're so concerned with. Because on a larger scale that's all they are are annoyances. I think it'd be best if we all thought about that a little more.
Had a little time by myself for a few days. It was supposed to be spent with company, but plans fall through and it was nice to have a little alone time after so much traveling. Little bothersome at times but that's okay. It all can be gotten over. It's just no fun to find yourself lying awake half the night when time would be much better spent asleep not thinking of things. I keep my mind off it with some drawing or painting. It's always been whats calmed me when I'm down.
Halloween in a few days, and Missy's excited about that. I think I should dress up as well. All fun things.
And then things aren't alright, and people get upset. Probably me more than others because I find myself getting far too emotional over stupid silly things, and it's hard. But whatever. It's all shit when you think about it. There's far worse things in life than the little annoyances, or the little problems we're so concerned with. Because on a larger scale that's all they are are annoyances. I think it'd be best if we all thought about that a little more.
Had a little time by myself for a few days. It was supposed to be spent with company, but plans fall through and it was nice to have a little alone time after so much traveling. Little bothersome at times but that's okay. It all can be gotten over. It's just no fun to find yourself lying awake half the night when time would be much better spent asleep not thinking of things. I keep my mind off it with some drawing or painting. It's always been whats calmed me when I'm down.
Halloween in a few days, and Missy's excited about that. I think I should dress up as well. All fun things.