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Its been a long weekend, and its tuesday morning.
From when I left this room friday until I got back here this morning... its so strange. and I just don't feel like changing around pictures on the computer today, although I'm sure my partner must be coming along down here sometime soo.
Friday I wasn't particularly pleased withe one in particular because I had to walk. And I went to a place that was often feared and held in anxiety... out of the blue. I went to Spruce's, and Jon seemed surprised by my kindness... but to be honest the thought of hating him hadn't crossed my mind.
And it was nice to sit for a hot minute, and just smoke and relax. Someone named Kevin was there, and they left me alone and watched Biker Boyz, which isn't such a bad movie either. I love the irish decor, and was quite happy to avoid the usual hordes of people there. I suppose its because the man of the house wasn't in.
Then I walked on to Arrons, realizing there was no cell phone for once, and no car. I had change, and little else, and felt quite relieved when bothe Ant and Arron popped their heads out of the porch. Hoi.. i got my package and had quite and interesting time.. and once Ricky and Izzy came along we had a hardcore hack circle... until Bob opened his stupid drunk mouth. Quite interesting though how all four.. got so offenseive when Bob started in hittin on me. And eventually Anthony and I left and walked but it was good.. it really really was.
Sara failed me.. all I wanted was to give my baby a birthday party and it really upset me that she bailed out on us. This will be fixed though.. He'll get his party.
and saturday.. i think that was the day/night.. he stayed oveR? I dont really remember.. wait.. he stayed.. and went to annas. or something like that anyway.
we walked round in the saturday sun.. after I stripped wallpaper in the bathroom. and we had glorious ice cream, and Bking and pat and steph showed up.. it was quite hilarious. Then we went to arrons in time for an outdoor blunt and raging fire. heh as we got there, guy and arron were chillen and the 13 year old neighbor and Bob were there. Bob was drunk as a skunk and neighbor-boy convinced Bob to let him drive Bob's workvan. And off they went to smoke a blunt, and they never came back. Bob's crazy wife came out and started talking to anthony, chugged arron's beer and she was talking shit.
eventually she tried to steal guy's beer which caused his old-canadian-ass to jump up and start screaming and holding up his fist. It was quite livid, andIve never seen guy move so fast or much. And then the crazy lady went off to the store to get butts, and proceeded to call some nice lady a fat bitch, and lock herself out of her house. she came home still drunk, withe more beers, and convinced her husband [who was getting arrested somewhere in Nashua] was home and had locked her out of the house.
Saturday evening anthony and I had a gorgeously lovely stroll from arrons to annas.. but noone was awake.. and sadly enough we split up and went to our homes.. i went to bed and passed out.. woke up and my father had left to go to Maine without me. Heh after he said he wanted me to go so bad. Then, i got up and went to my computer. I smoked a cigarette upstairs and desperately tried to call anthony. several hours later.. i was in the same spot and he came to my house.. got me into the kitchen and cooked scrambled eggs.. the best damn eggs ive ever had. he sat me in the sun, and our dogs lay there withe us. I miss him living at home so much and he's gotta go away soon... we'll find out today.
and we played house, i did dishes and dishes and then he picked out some clothes to dress me in n we took a comfy shower.. then cuddled and he helped withe makeup, and we even smoked a few times. once we left.. we started walking and it poured and poured... we stopped at Annas and ended up staying for a while.. anna was even nice. it was a really great day and come the end i begged anthony to stay the night.. and off we walked home, and snuck into my window. and i slept soooo sooooo well that night and havent been happier in forever and ever and ever. and he stayed.. we f ought slightly in the morning and yet it was all fine and good and well. mmm... yesterday.. what on earth did we do? oh yeah.. we went to anna's... ahah! crystal from school picked us up and we drove all around trailer parks looking for her boyfriend. when we got to his house and he was actually there.. he was in a really shitty mood and she had t drop us off ... we went to annas and smoked and anna wanted to be mean, so we left. I got ahead in grand theft auto 3 while anthony carried 800 pounds of cement so he could take me to the movies and the new Adam Sandler movie is fuckiing great.. i laughed SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much and it was great and baby i love u n ill miss u more soooo much i love u. argh what do i do? all alone all the time.. im not used to that whatsoever.. i love u ant muahhh
From when I left this room friday until I got back here this morning... its so strange. and I just don't feel like changing around pictures on the computer today, although I'm sure my partner must be coming along down here sometime soo.
Friday I wasn't particularly pleased withe one in particular because I had to walk. And I went to a place that was often feared and held in anxiety... out of the blue. I went to Spruce's, and Jon seemed surprised by my kindness... but to be honest the thought of hating him hadn't crossed my mind.
And it was nice to sit for a hot minute, and just smoke and relax. Someone named Kevin was there, and they left me alone and watched Biker Boyz, which isn't such a bad movie either. I love the irish decor, and was quite happy to avoid the usual hordes of people there. I suppose its because the man of the house wasn't in.
Then I walked on to Arrons, realizing there was no cell phone for once, and no car. I had change, and little else, and felt quite relieved when bothe Ant and Arron popped their heads out of the porch. Hoi.. i got my package and had quite and interesting time.. and once Ricky and Izzy came along we had a hardcore hack circle... until Bob opened his stupid drunk mouth. Quite interesting though how all four.. got so offenseive when Bob started in hittin on me. And eventually Anthony and I left and walked but it was good.. it really really was.
Sara failed me.. all I wanted was to give my baby a birthday party and it really upset me that she bailed out on us. This will be fixed though.. He'll get his party.
and saturday.. i think that was the day/night.. he stayed oveR? I dont really remember.. wait.. he stayed.. and went to annas. or something like that anyway.
we walked round in the saturday sun.. after I stripped wallpaper in the bathroom. and we had glorious ice cream, and Bking and pat and steph showed up.. it was quite hilarious. Then we went to arrons in time for an outdoor blunt and raging fire. heh as we got there, guy and arron were chillen and the 13 year old neighbor and Bob were there. Bob was drunk as a skunk and neighbor-boy convinced Bob to let him drive Bob's workvan. And off they went to smoke a blunt, and they never came back. Bob's crazy wife came out and started talking to anthony, chugged arron's beer and she was talking shit.
eventually she tried to steal guy's beer which caused his old-canadian-ass to jump up and start screaming and holding up his fist. It was quite livid, andIve never seen guy move so fast or much. And then the crazy lady went off to the store to get butts, and proceeded to call some nice lady a fat bitch, and lock herself out of her house. she came home still drunk, withe more beers, and convinced her husband [who was getting arrested somewhere in Nashua] was home and had locked her out of the house.
Saturday evening anthony and I had a gorgeously lovely stroll from arrons to annas.. but noone was awake.. and sadly enough we split up and went to our homes.. i went to bed and passed out.. woke up and my father had left to go to Maine without me. Heh after he said he wanted me to go so bad. Then, i got up and went to my computer. I smoked a cigarette upstairs and desperately tried to call anthony. several hours later.. i was in the same spot and he came to my house.. got me into the kitchen and cooked scrambled eggs.. the best damn eggs ive ever had. he sat me in the sun, and our dogs lay there withe us. I miss him living at home so much and he's gotta go away soon... we'll find out today.
and we played house, i did dishes and dishes and then he picked out some clothes to dress me in n we took a comfy shower.. then cuddled and he helped withe makeup, and we even smoked a few times. once we left.. we started walking and it poured and poured... we stopped at Annas and ended up staying for a while.. anna was even nice. it was a really great day and come the end i begged anthony to stay the night.. and off we walked home, and snuck into my window. and i slept soooo sooooo well that night and havent been happier in forever and ever and ever. and he stayed.. we f ought slightly in the morning and yet it was all fine and good and well. mmm... yesterday.. what on earth did we do? oh yeah.. we went to anna's... ahah! crystal from school picked us up and we drove all around trailer parks looking for her boyfriend. when we got to his house and he was actually there.. he was in a really shitty mood and she had t drop us off ... we went to annas and smoked and anna wanted to be mean, so we left. I got ahead in grand theft auto 3 while anthony carried 800 pounds of cement so he could take me to the movies and the new Adam Sandler movie is fuckiing great.. i laughed SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much and it was great and baby i love u n ill miss u more soooo much i love u. argh what do i do? all alone all the time.. im not used to that whatsoever.. i love u ant muahhh