The end.
I was driving home tonight and realized how much everything has changed. A list of which will be included in the entry I am making this week. Listening to Graham Colton, skipping the first five exits I should have taken, it became completely apparent that many changes are needed. The first and most important of which will be the retiring of "wingmaster." Sometime this week, in a link included in my AIM profile, will be a new journal. The journal of tomorrow. For now, that is all, except this.
"The only thing you ever wanted was for me to be here
To stay
But now you've gone away.
I wish I could pick up the phone and tell you how I'm feeling
Tell you how I've changed
I'd tell you everything.
I really don't know if it'd make it all better
But I let myself go and put it in a letter, to you.
I know I've been stupid and don't have a reason
But I'm trying not to ruin the one thing I believe in
You.
It's killing me, was killing you.
Cause you're all that I want
You're all that I need
But now that you're gone
I see you."
It's funny that I tell my friends who have wanted my advice just to tell people how they feel, how that nothing is not worth going for, especially with any woman. But at the same time, I'm just as timid as anyone, and I still can't take my own advice about anything. I'll never put into words what everything meant, what everything means. How I felt when our eyes met and only you and I mattered. The moments when you looked at me and I knew not to say another word, or the times you looked at me because the only thing you needed was a laugh. How your hair falls around your beautiful face, how you still don't know why I stare at you sometimes.
When I held you, I felt more alive then I thought I ever could. But now that you're gone, I see you. In every dream, every moment. Every time my eyes close that ear to ear smile is burned in the back of my eyelids. And that letter in the song above, will be written over and over again in my head. Changing the lines with white-out or the backspace key or by just ripping up the pages as my feelings change and grow. Everytime it's re-written the love that is it's foundation will only make it stronger, but in reality...that letter will never be composed. If God wants it to be, maybe I'll be able to recite it to you someday.
Goodnight.
"The only thing you ever wanted was for me to be here
To stay
But now you've gone away.
I wish I could pick up the phone and tell you how I'm feeling
Tell you how I've changed
I'd tell you everything.
I really don't know if it'd make it all better
But I let myself go and put it in a letter, to you.
I know I've been stupid and don't have a reason
But I'm trying not to ruin the one thing I believe in
You.
It's killing me, was killing you.
Cause you're all that I want
You're all that I need
But now that you're gone
I see you."
It's funny that I tell my friends who have wanted my advice just to tell people how they feel, how that nothing is not worth going for, especially with any woman. But at the same time, I'm just as timid as anyone, and I still can't take my own advice about anything. I'll never put into words what everything meant, what everything means. How I felt when our eyes met and only you and I mattered. The moments when you looked at me and I knew not to say another word, or the times you looked at me because the only thing you needed was a laugh. How your hair falls around your beautiful face, how you still don't know why I stare at you sometimes.
When I held you, I felt more alive then I thought I ever could. But now that you're gone, I see you. In every dream, every moment. Every time my eyes close that ear to ear smile is burned in the back of my eyelids. And that letter in the song above, will be written over and over again in my head. Changing the lines with white-out or the backspace key or by just ripping up the pages as my feelings change and grow. Everytime it's re-written the love that is it's foundation will only make it stronger, but in reality...that letter will never be composed. If God wants it to be, maybe I'll be able to recite it to you someday.
Goodnight.