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so I am looking for a new job ... I need to find a new job ..... i need to find one soon..... im not upset or mad at this moment so this is not written out of a moment of desperation and bad things going on at work ... although it is a weekend .... and i am more than a bit bored... and i have to work it with her.... but i digress.... this is not about that .... this is about changing me .... or perhaps finding the parts of me that i let grow old and dusty .... or maybe never even let out of the box
i know there is a huge part of me that hates who i am or have become ... but there is this part of me thank heaven that really loves me and wants the bully part of me to stop beating the rest of me to a pulp .... like that metaphore.....anyway
so i am putting my resume out .... i dont know what it is i am looking for ... its pretty easy right now to send it to places that are very similar to what and where i have worked in the past..... i want to be closer to people i know and who will also have time to spend with me ... that is key ....
so part of this is to work out the list of things i would want in a new job/move..... and yes i will move...... texas is not for me i dont think....
you wanna know why its not for me ... while i love the sun and the blue skies... i can not take six months of 90+ degree summer.... and the other day i was all happy and what not because it was cloudy and overcast.... and maybe just like that song says .... "im only happy when it rains"
I have sent a few applications out... and truth is i dont even remember where it was i sent a couple.... one was to the philly zoo.... i have two or three more places i want to send thigns ... one for a summer position at pikes peak if its still open .... one for a summer position at tugs platue .... and one for the lehigh zoo......
if any ones has any ideas for me of types of jobs to spply for or places that they know are hiring .... and i know this ia really really really bad time to be looking for a job .... please please let me know ....
i do know theres apart of me thats feeling pretty crappy about a lot of things in my life.... and a good hand full of those i have absolutly no power over ... and need to just let them be what they are and move on ... but the job thing i can do something about .....
if you know of any school programs that i should be trying my hand at as a better what to get futher in life and jobs and all that let me know .... i am still kinda considering taking the online masters program in interpretation ..... i hate the fact that this job in some ways has been the most stunting job i have taking as far as my professional growth ... might then also match how juvinile my behavior has been at times .... who knows.....
it anyone knows how to find peer groups of ppl their own age that might be a help to .... i seem to always miss with that kind of thing.... im not good at making and keeping friends..... or new ones anyway ..... and im not sure how to go about doing it .... i dont really have a peer group here at work ... considering the one of ppl my age i absolutly dont get a long with .... and the other ... hes great but he has a wife and kid and you know family thigns.... i want but am totally not sure how to get you know ... people you would call and talke to when you have a bad day .... someone to go to the movies with or grab a drink with after work .... im thinking if i worked at someplace with a larger staff that might help too... *shrugs* ... i would love to have friends that if you asked for help which yes i am bad at would actually have the time and want to help you .... not that i dont have friends like that ... they just live far away .... and there for cant help in the physical sense..
but yeah anyway im looking for a new job asap ..... and yes i still need a new car ... i didnt get very far with that after feeling really stressed a freaked at the nissian dealer....stupid i know ....if anyone wants to come visit and help me find and buy a new car with me i would love them forever..... just saying ...
ack ... means i need to start collecting boxes again ..... my brain has soo not been functioning for months ...
and i soo need to get the paper crap down ........at least this time there will be less stuff to pack up ..... i think .... but damn my bead will be a pain to take apart and move down the stairs .... oh well such is the cold hard facts of moving .... i am thinking that the northeast quadratnt of the US would probably be a good place to start looking unless the location or job just sounds too unbeleavably good...
and yes i know this if full of typos and misspellings...
i know there is a huge part of me that hates who i am or have become ... but there is this part of me thank heaven that really loves me and wants the bully part of me to stop beating the rest of me to a pulp .... like that metaphore.....anyway
so i am putting my resume out .... i dont know what it is i am looking for ... its pretty easy right now to send it to places that are very similar to what and where i have worked in the past..... i want to be closer to people i know and who will also have time to spend with me ... that is key ....
so part of this is to work out the list of things i would want in a new job/move..... and yes i will move...... texas is not for me i dont think....
you wanna know why its not for me ... while i love the sun and the blue skies... i can not take six months of 90+ degree summer.... and the other day i was all happy and what not because it was cloudy and overcast.... and maybe just like that song says .... "im only happy when it rains"
I have sent a few applications out... and truth is i dont even remember where it was i sent a couple.... one was to the philly zoo.... i have two or three more places i want to send thigns ... one for a summer position at pikes peak if its still open .... one for a summer position at tugs platue .... and one for the lehigh zoo......
if any ones has any ideas for me of types of jobs to spply for or places that they know are hiring .... and i know this ia really really really bad time to be looking for a job .... please please let me know ....
i do know theres apart of me thats feeling pretty crappy about a lot of things in my life.... and a good hand full of those i have absolutly no power over ... and need to just let them be what they are and move on ... but the job thing i can do something about .....
if you know of any school programs that i should be trying my hand at as a better what to get futher in life and jobs and all that let me know .... i am still kinda considering taking the online masters program in interpretation ..... i hate the fact that this job in some ways has been the most stunting job i have taking as far as my professional growth ... might then also match how juvinile my behavior has been at times .... who knows.....
it anyone knows how to find peer groups of ppl their own age that might be a help to .... i seem to always miss with that kind of thing.... im not good at making and keeping friends..... or new ones anyway ..... and im not sure how to go about doing it .... i dont really have a peer group here at work ... considering the one of ppl my age i absolutly dont get a long with .... and the other ... hes great but he has a wife and kid and you know family thigns.... i want but am totally not sure how to get you know ... people you would call and talke to when you have a bad day .... someone to go to the movies with or grab a drink with after work .... im thinking if i worked at someplace with a larger staff that might help too... *shrugs* ... i would love to have friends that if you asked for help which yes i am bad at would actually have the time and want to help you .... not that i dont have friends like that ... they just live far away .... and there for cant help in the physical sense..
but yeah anyway im looking for a new job asap ..... and yes i still need a new car ... i didnt get very far with that after feeling really stressed a freaked at the nissian dealer....stupid i know ....if anyone wants to come visit and help me find and buy a new car with me i would love them forever..... just saying ...
ack ... means i need to start collecting boxes again ..... my brain has soo not been functioning for months ...
and i soo need to get the paper crap down ........at least this time there will be less stuff to pack up ..... i think .... but damn my bead will be a pain to take apart and move down the stairs .... oh well such is the cold hard facts of moving .... i am thinking that the northeast quadratnt of the US would probably be a good place to start looking unless the location or job just sounds too unbeleavably good...
and yes i know this if full of typos and misspellings...