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so i guess i havent posted anything in 6 weeks .... shame on me ...
honestly its mainly because i dont get online much if at all at work .... its frowned upon... i dont get online much at work .... cause then i get accosted by ppl i have no desire to deal with .... and no one else is really around anyway so why bother ... leaving me in the pitt of no posting ..... i dont even do facebook too often .... *shrugs*
so work really really sux ... and i have determined if you cry every day at or on the way to work than this is not the job for you ... its been an year and things arent better... in someways worse..... and so its time for me to leave.... to do what i am not sure...
i ended up calling my dad yesterday morning while at work trying to get him to tell me all the reasons why i cant quit this job... the only reason is that i need a source of income .... especially inthis economy ...... so i feel very doubtful that i will find something else to replace it
and as per almost every year i hate hate hate valentines day .....
you know i have only really ever dated someone over one valenties day ever.... sad huh .... he did give me really beautiful boquet of alstromeria .... and he came to visit ... was pretty good in the grand skeem of valentines days ....
once i was under the delusion i was seeing someone .... but in that situation of course i sent stuff to him and never recieved a damn thing .... story of my life in most ways .... very tired of it
so non-motivated to do much of anything ..... i finally started to clean up and filed all the papre work that has been laying around my room .... but only cause i was so upset yesterday ... mostly i just feel very apathetic all the time ... and it doesnt make me want to do anything ... in fact make me wantto just do nothihng ...
the bright spot was the steelers winning the super bowl .... i got to go to a friends house for the game ... and while she lives over an hour away it was good to get out and the ppl she had over were really nice even if they were all pulling for the cardinals.....
i have een trying to look for a car .... it was going ok .. but then i had a few sales men that were kinda pushy and i hate that and it makes me extreamly stressed out and overly emotional for no reason .... and the once nissian guy keeps calling me back ..... i should answer his call the next time and just explain that with the fact that i dont think im keeping my job i cant afford a car.... even if i really need one..... i hate doing all this kinda crap by myself.... and is how i ended up with the car i have... getting fed up and feeling really pressured by the sales man and just accepting what he was offereing as a consiquence i am pretty sure i overpayed for my car ....
I keep not sleeping well because my roommate insistes that the house must be a constatnt 72 degrees all the time.... which for me is a tad cold for just sitting around the house in less than jeans and a long sleeve shirt .... i get hot if i start doing something like cleaning .... but really to hot to acutally sleep well... i woke up drenced in sweet last night ... ugh ....
and shame on me i havent talked to my brother or sister sine christmas .... go me ...
and thats about it
honestly its mainly because i dont get online much if at all at work .... its frowned upon... i dont get online much at work .... cause then i get accosted by ppl i have no desire to deal with .... and no one else is really around anyway so why bother ... leaving me in the pitt of no posting ..... i dont even do facebook too often .... *shrugs*
so work really really sux ... and i have determined if you cry every day at or on the way to work than this is not the job for you ... its been an year and things arent better... in someways worse..... and so its time for me to leave.... to do what i am not sure...
i ended up calling my dad yesterday morning while at work trying to get him to tell me all the reasons why i cant quit this job... the only reason is that i need a source of income .... especially inthis economy ...... so i feel very doubtful that i will find something else to replace it
and as per almost every year i hate hate hate valentines day .....
you know i have only really ever dated someone over one valenties day ever.... sad huh .... he did give me really beautiful boquet of alstromeria .... and he came to visit ... was pretty good in the grand skeem of valentines days ....
once i was under the delusion i was seeing someone .... but in that situation of course i sent stuff to him and never recieved a damn thing .... story of my life in most ways .... very tired of it
so non-motivated to do much of anything ..... i finally started to clean up and filed all the papre work that has been laying around my room .... but only cause i was so upset yesterday ... mostly i just feel very apathetic all the time ... and it doesnt make me want to do anything ... in fact make me wantto just do nothihng ...
the bright spot was the steelers winning the super bowl .... i got to go to a friends house for the game ... and while she lives over an hour away it was good to get out and the ppl she had over were really nice even if they were all pulling for the cardinals.....
i have een trying to look for a car .... it was going ok .. but then i had a few sales men that were kinda pushy and i hate that and it makes me extreamly stressed out and overly emotional for no reason .... and the once nissian guy keeps calling me back ..... i should answer his call the next time and just explain that with the fact that i dont think im keeping my job i cant afford a car.... even if i really need one..... i hate doing all this kinda crap by myself.... and is how i ended up with the car i have... getting fed up and feeling really pressured by the sales man and just accepting what he was offereing as a consiquence i am pretty sure i overpayed for my car ....
I keep not sleeping well because my roommate insistes that the house must be a constatnt 72 degrees all the time.... which for me is a tad cold for just sitting around the house in less than jeans and a long sleeve shirt .... i get hot if i start doing something like cleaning .... but really to hot to acutally sleep well... i woke up drenced in sweet last night ... ugh ....
and shame on me i havent talked to my brother or sister sine christmas .... go me ...
and thats about it