I am terrified of fuckup. This becomes evident in everything I do. It's why I'm shy. It's why I'm awkward. It's why I think I'm terrible at everything. And it's really obvious when I *do* fuck up, because I feel terrible for the next n units of time (fluctuates depending on severity of fuckup ( Read more... )

Being in and around this scene I've found, with the house shows and the bands and the music and the raves and the close-friends and the more-acquaintances-than-friends.... I find it difficult to "just be myself". I don't meet people well because I'm no good at small talk. The people I do know I often don't have very much in common with them and so ( Read more... )