. . .stop me falling down, stop me making movies of myself . . .
been doing research for my writing and I am really fucking tired.
sometimes I feel i get more rest during the week then the weekend.
i love my job, but i want to quit or take a vacation or something so bad. i just i am not motivated for anything lately. I have been sitting here trying to get stuff done today.bleh...i dont want to admit that there is this something missing in me since. . ., i dunno, i dont want this to go on forever
I should just really look into going back to just doing art for a living. at least even when I am not motivated I am being productive with art. . .i mean even when I am really really depressed there is a guitar on my hands or an temp tatt pen on my hand. . .
. . .song or suicide song or suicide song or suicide. . .
i need to be drunk more often...couldnt drink yesterday cause I drank too much red wine the day before, that shit fucks you over. i was vomiting bile all morning bleeeeck.
sometimes I feel i get more rest during the week then the weekend.
i love my job, but i want to quit or take a vacation or something so bad. i just i am not motivated for anything lately. I have been sitting here trying to get stuff done today.bleh...i dont want to admit that there is this something missing in me since. . ., i dunno, i dont want this to go on forever
I should just really look into going back to just doing art for a living. at least even when I am not motivated I am being productive with art. . .i mean even when I am really really depressed there is a guitar on my hands or an temp tatt pen on my hand. . .
. . .song or suicide song or suicide song or suicide. . .
i need to be drunk more often...couldnt drink yesterday cause I drank too much red wine the day before, that shit fucks you over. i was vomiting bile all morning bleeeeck.