I am so lonely
I am so lonely. I wish I had friends to go out and hang with. I wish Kat wasn't avoiding me. The truth is I miss her. I miss having a friend to talk to and cheer me up. I am just so lonely. I want to hang out with someone. The children used to fill that gap for me, but since I am not working at child care or Head Start. I know this is depression talking right now. I just want to have an adventure with Kat and laugh some.
tomorrow is another trigger day for me. It is payday and again and a reminder of this dark time in my life. i miss my old life. I miss being a part of the team and the head start family. everything was going so well for me and the rug was pulled out from underneath me. At least I still had Kat and the school age room. since she won't let me in there I seem to have nothing. I'm alone. I'm an orphan. I don't belong. I'm finally starting to grieve how my life has changed. I've been so resistant to confront my feelings.
tomorrow is another trigger day for me. It is payday and again and a reminder of this dark time in my life. i miss my old life. I miss being a part of the team and the head start family. everything was going so well for me and the rug was pulled out from underneath me. At least I still had Kat and the school age room. since she won't let me in there I seem to have nothing. I'm alone. I'm an orphan. I don't belong. I'm finally starting to grieve how my life has changed. I've been so resistant to confront my feelings.