haven't updated in a long time...i guess i should...
wal-mart is good, i work a lot, and get paid for it so that's always a nice
there's a guy that is cute there that i sorta talk to
his name is andrew...23, thinking about tryin to go to school for computer technicianing(???is that a word???) or something in the general area, he's got a great smile, sings outloud to songs he hears playing or one's that are just playing inside his head, or he dances to them....he makes me feel normal in that little area of life
we hung out just recently and i kinda disappointed myself with that
we might see each other again this weekend MAYBE big maybe on that
this whole week i've been working overnight moving furniture and such...little hint tiny people moving big ass boxes of furntiure equals billions of bruises and a box of furniture landing on your head not so pleasant
as far as the whole not goin to sleep until 7am-ish and leaving for work for 10pm is ironically not so bad
side comment: jess is like the coolest person ever!!!
let's see what else is new
oh my dad and the freaking deer, he's hit one and almost hit another two so far this week
yay for the newest car having to be put into the shop so that we can have less money than we already don't have...
oh and me and the cops in parking lots, or anywhere else for that matter between the hours of 1am and 4am seem to be a reoccurring event in my life now...that all goes back to the i sorta disappointed myself with the cute andrew dude from work....nothing real bad or anything just made out for practically a half hour or so...but the fact that i did it so soon is what makes me a little disappointed in myself but i keep trying to remind myself that i am trying to move on and to do that i am goin to have to push myself really hard i just don't want anyone else to think less of me and i am so scared of letting go again and falling into something that will just tear me apart
i mean i already regret so much i don't want to add to the list but that's part of life i guess i dunno
and i haven't heard anything yet from my school about anything...i'm getting anxious now about it....i'm sooooo nervous and eager to see what the classes are gonna be like...i still can't get over that i'm kinda excited about learning stuff...i usually hate learning stuff...it hurts my head
that's all that i can think of right now...maybe i'll update again soon if something interesting pops up
there's a guy that is cute there that i sorta talk to
his name is andrew...23, thinking about tryin to go to school for computer technicianing(???is that a word???) or something in the general area, he's got a great smile, sings outloud to songs he hears playing or one's that are just playing inside his head, or he dances to them....he makes me feel normal in that little area of life
we hung out just recently and i kinda disappointed myself with that
we might see each other again this weekend MAYBE big maybe on that
this whole week i've been working overnight moving furniture and such...little hint tiny people moving big ass boxes of furntiure equals billions of bruises and a box of furniture landing on your head not so pleasant
as far as the whole not goin to sleep until 7am-ish and leaving for work for 10pm is ironically not so bad
side comment: jess is like the coolest person ever!!!
let's see what else is new
oh my dad and the freaking deer, he's hit one and almost hit another two so far this week
yay for the newest car having to be put into the shop so that we can have less money than we already don't have...
oh and me and the cops in parking lots, or anywhere else for that matter between the hours of 1am and 4am seem to be a reoccurring event in my life now...that all goes back to the i sorta disappointed myself with the cute andrew dude from work....nothing real bad or anything just made out for practically a half hour or so...but the fact that i did it so soon is what makes me a little disappointed in myself but i keep trying to remind myself that i am trying to move on and to do that i am goin to have to push myself really hard i just don't want anyone else to think less of me and i am so scared of letting go again and falling into something that will just tear me apart
i mean i already regret so much i don't want to add to the list but that's part of life i guess i dunno
and i haven't heard anything yet from my school about anything...i'm getting anxious now about it....i'm sooooo nervous and eager to see what the classes are gonna be like...i still can't get over that i'm kinda excited about learning stuff...i usually hate learning stuff...it hurts my head
that's all that i can think of right now...maybe i'll update again soon if something interesting pops up