I’m actually an idiot
…Okay, so after having an intense crying session, like EXTREMELY embarrassing ugly crying, I had an idea. And I checked Facebook. You know, the place I forget exists 99% of the time. And I remembered that you can have a unique url. So I checked.
How did I never think of this before. Am I an idiot? Probably. But holy shit. It’s definitely them, all the info matches and like I SAW a photo, I would know that face absolutely anywhere. So I’m… pretty sure Teira is actually still alive. Well, at least as of a couple of years ago, which is better than anything else I’ve seen lately. (I haven’t updated my profile in a few years either and I’m still alive, so… yeah.)
But now, it’s like… What do I do with this information? Do I try to friend request them? Would they even want to talk to me if I did? Do they remember me at all or am I being a crazy weirdo? Are they also someone who just never checks Facebook? Should I just leave them alone? I’m kind of freaking out about it, actually.
Maybe I’ll ask Mars for advice after the holidays? We had reconnected because I cold sent an email (which was an absolutely CRAZY thing for me to do, I never do this sort of thing), but like… Facebook is an entirely different beast. I don’t know yet.
Still. There’s like… this wave of relief. To know that they’re very likely still out there. I’ve been agonizing over the possibility that they were dead for… years. It’s still possible, true, but it feels so much more likely that they aren’t. I’m scared but… happy? If that makes sense.
So, um. Yeah. Sorry for my very public breakdown a little while ago, ha. I’m okay now, I swear.